LETTER 2 GAP

Uh
First date
Met up in the parking lot
Mid spring you was still looking awfully hot
You got in and stole my heart on the spot
Didn't even shoot yo shot
And you already had me awed
Yeah

I rolled up
Got you some coffee
Pulled up to the crib and put that pussy in a coffin
Ha
And then I showed you a couple songs
It was Just some old shit but you told me I was raw

I took you back cause your momma caught you skipping
I know we just met but I was already missing
Your voice your smell
Your touch
Your hair
I knew I had to get you back
I knew I had to blow your cell

Ha, oh shit
And then I remember we was meeting up on the low cause your momma couldn't find out about me
Or your ex
Which I thought was weird, but I chose to ignore it
I was just here for the ride
Then you was leaving for college, got back with your ex cause he would be closer
And then I said I give y'all two weeks
And then what happened?
This what happened

The two weeks went by
You called on FaceTime
Said you was done with him
Foreal this time
I gave you another chance
Gave our love another dance
Then we walking Walgreens with each other in our hands
I fell for you
Spent a week up in your crib
Went broke and in debt
Even thinking of a kid

Wasn't nothing serious
But you had me curious
Like I want you in my life
But I'm Talking marriages
Yea

I never felt this way before
With my ex 5 years and never
Had this goal
You was something different
Like In life you was missing
So when I finally had you
I felt ready for my mission

And I was already really set with you cause
I ain't want kids and
You don't want kids
And we agreed on a finger monkey and a dog
And the dog was a pit
That was cool

I let you meet my momma
Let you use my commas
I should've gave you nothing when I found out bout the drama
New Years drinking and popping pills
Almost killed yourself and never told me how you feel

You kept to yourself
Even when I opened up
Your legs opened wide
Always asking baby can we fuck
Baby girl I should've known
Since the day we met you been used me as a hoe

It's ok tho
I'm getting too ahead
Remember all our convos
When we laid up in your bed
Went on real dates
Ex girls would killed for
Then your momma found out
Bout my music and my kin folk

So then your mom thought it was my fault you almost OD'd on New Years
When it was her that was there taking care of you
I wasn't even there
I don't even drink like that let alone pop pills

But I Couldn't give up
Even if it did suck
Momma took your phone
Your laptop
And your home
Said you had to kiss up
Get up on her good side
For you to even see me
Had to come up with some good lies

Then you ran away with me
Didn't last long cause they knew you would with me
Should've called the cops for causing a whole scene
Should've called the cops what you did to me

Kept on texting on the low
Used your tv cause you didn't have a phone
Then our birthdays came around
Showed up and I made a sound
And your momma made you cut me off and I said I see you around

And that was that
I ain't hear from you in like
8 months
I didn't know how you were doin
The damage I done
You just left me in the dark
Blocked me on all social media
Telling your friends you tryna cut me off cause I'm crazy
Like your momma ain't a over controlling sociopath who walks all over you and your dad
But Shoutout to your dad for putting up with it tho
Cause I know your momma pussy game crazy for anyone to put a ring on it

But I know how it goes
You end up dating your parents
And since I'm not a soft ass pussy who lets you talk to me crazy and tell me what to do
It makes sense why you went back to your ex
I'm not bitter, I'm petty
All you had to do was tell me to fuck off
Not sell me lies of us working out once you finessed your parents out a new car and new phone
I was down for you
But girl I'm living life
You stuck in the same bullshit lifestyle you claimed to hate with a passion
I'm here chasing my passion
It's all love tho I can't pretend I never had that for you
I'm just upset you built like a clown
You could do better
Stop living a lie
See the thing about growing up is that it comes with time
You ain't mine
But you all up in my mind
Words I never got to say to you
Letter to GAP
Lover Boy Lu
Lu Lu Lu
Lu Lu Lu