Love You Now

Trace the patterns in your steps
Inflections, what you might've meant
Jealousy or envy
Doesn't matter, they're both easy
And every time I reach for you
I stop myself so you don't have to
Scared of being dependent
Shut you out in my resentment

And this tension ties me up
One hand reaching for the gun

But then I hear you from the back seat
Singing to yourself
And I know I've felt this feeling
Lying on your couch
The shower drowns you out
I think I could love you now

Wish I could meet you for a second time
And see you through a stranger's eyes
So gracious, pure as porcelain
Not a trace of your exhaustion
With the innocence of childhood
They hold you up like Atlas would
When everything's about you
It just makes me hate me more

But then our eyes meet and I'm laughing
Dancing by yourself
And you act like no one's watching
While they enjoy the view
They're all in love with you
And I think I love you too

You're tearing me apart in my dreams
You're everything I wished I would be
But I can feel my heart turn slowly
I see what everybody else sees
I want to be the wind in your wings

All this doubt has made me numb
I just want so much to trust you'll hold me up

Because I hear you from the back seat
Singing to yourself
And I know I've felt this feeling
Lying on your couch
The shower drowns you out
I think I could love you now