Mid-July

Mid-july
You said if I don't take your side then you might die
I just stood outside and tried to choke myself to death
But took a breath
I couldn't help myself

I was upset
And tired but you still tried to pull me into bed
You grabbed my arm I said maybe some other time
You said I lied
So I caved in and gave you head

Now I don't wanna see you lately
Don't want you to call me baby
And I hate that I feel this crazy
It doesn't change it that we're dating
I feel shaken I feel baited
When everything you say keeps changing
And I've been feeling fucking jaded
Maybe now
Finally found
A way out
As I stand on the ground
I can see you were pulling me down

Stand my ground
Gets harder when you say my memory is not sound
You've made me think I lost my mind so many times
Thought you were right 'til I started to write it down

Now I don't wanna see you lately
Don't want you to call me baby
And I hate that I feel this crazy
It doesn't change it that we're dating
I feel shaken I feel baited
When everything you say keeps changing
And I've been feeling fucking jaded
Maybe now
Finally found
A way out
As I stand on the ground
I can see you were pulling me down

Now in my mind, I'm right back where you had me
Struggling to leave
Responding to no with an
"I thought you loved me"
Begging me "babe please"
I told you plainly
"No" not "convince me"
Oh how couldn't I see
The way I surrendered
To "don't you remembers"
And all the people who still try to defend you
Ignoring how I'd resist
Then try to cure it with a kiss
And that's why

I don't wanna see you lately
Don't want you to call me baby
It doesn't change it that we dated
I was shaken I was baited
When everything you said kept changing
And I've been feeling fucking jaded
Maybe now
Finally found
A way out
And as I stand on ground
I can see you were pulling me down
As I stand on the ground