I Would've Stayed

I dyed my hair just to get back
The feeling I had
When i was going through change
And I'm just about legal now
And I don't know how
To feel about being that age
And the friends I had in high school
I was such a fool
I could've had a better time
When did calling my friends turn into such a chore
When did I start to enjoy being bored
Staring at the blank walls in my room
That I'm slowly decorating just to please you
And I've got so many records now
I think i'll play them when i get around
To it

Oh am I the same person I was before
Oh am I even my mothers daughter anymore
I think I left a part of me in the old park
At that festival at night
The first time I felt alive
Well it quickly died
When we started to drive away
Never came back
If I knew that, I would've stayed

I cried just to feel sad
To make sure I had
Some emotions left
And I don't know if it even worked
Cause im so hurt
My body learned to numb the ache
And I look at everything I've been through
Wonder why I left you
I'd be so different by now
When did growing up become such a pain
When did I start to forget my own name
Trying to recall all the things I've done
And coming to the conclusion that I've done none
And I don't have any innocence now
I'll try my best to get it back somehow

Oh am I the same person I was before
Oh am I even my mothers daughter anymore
I think I left a part of me in the old park
At that festival at night
The first time I felt alive
Well it quickly died
When we started to drive away
Never came back
If I knew that, I would've stayed