Numb Pt. 2

Yeah
I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to
I see people say they're happy but their smile is see-through
I hear people say they love me but I don't believe you
That's just what happens when that kept you, live and leaves you
See I'm just scared I'll never love again
Why can't you put it past us and love me for who I am?
I'm startin' to feel like I've been gettin' closer to my sins
And this devil on my shoulder is the only that's left but
There was times I would feel too deep, I would start to panic
And the people I gave my all to would take advantage
See, you called me crazy but I pick up every time it rings
When you said that you hate me, I just don't understand it
Maybe I'm too damaged, maybe I'm too broken
Maybe I'm losin' myself or maybe I'm just hopeless
It's like we live inside a world where we can't show emotions
Like the ones that hurt us most are who we hold the closest
(Are who we hold the closest)
And I just feel like there's nowhere else to run
(Nowhere else to run)
I'm scared to see millions 'cause I hate who I become
(I hate who I become)
I can never find a reason why I'm just so hard to love
But I can find a thousand reason why I'm loadin' up this gun, look
These days I need to be alone but I
hate bein' lonely (I hate bein' lonely)
And I hate the new me but I don't miss the old me
Still damaged by the empty love you tried to show me
'Cause I wasn't the only one, it was your one and only
And my family don't look at me the same
They look at me like we don't share the same blood in our veins
They look at me like I'm different when they're the ones who changed
Maybe I was too distant,
too stuck in my ways (Too stuck in my ways), fuck
I hope God hears me
No one's prayin' for me
Your eyes tell me everything you're scared of sayin' to me
My heart is growin' cold but you was never, no
I learned to love these scars by forgivin' those who gave 'em to me
Certain people will never get who I am (Never get who I am)
Sometimes you have to listen to
silence to understand (Silence to understand)
Wear my heart on my sleeve and I put my life in your hands
Did all I could, you still made me feel like less than a man
(Made me feel like less than a man)
We always seem to rough on those who love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last 'cause
You left me when I needed you most
I said, we always seem to rough on those who love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last, uh
I'm just hopin' that it last (Hopin' that it last)