Worthless

Why the fuck was I even born
I feel deformed
Torn apart, feel like a demon without the horns
I try to cheer myself up and keep myself in check
But I still don't seem to gain any type of respect
Just pondering my death, holding a blade against my neck
When am I never not an emotional wreck?
My dad's a deadbeat and my mom's dead from alcoholism
I feel like it's a rhythm, like I'm a be there with 'em
Like I'm gonna end up either dead or broken
Will this be the way that I end up going?
Hoping for the best but the worst is just provokin'
It's like life is yelling at me to slit my throat and.
My fuckin' life's a book but no one bothers to open
Wanting to coast through life and start boastin'
About money and fame, go big like a freight train
Wanting to take this game by storm but I'm stuck in the damn rain
Is living in this planet really necessary
The more I think about that, the less it's scary
The more I think about life, the more I end up in fury
I have an ugly reflection like I repeated Bloody Mary
Lord knows what's wrong with me
Is it really wrong for me to think about dying
It's just really longing me
I wanna be strong and take on the world head on
But there's times where I wished that I was gone
Fuck, I feel like there's no room left for me in the world
I belong in a tomb
Why did I get out of my mama's womb
Just by death itself I'm being consumed, I ain't trippin'
I'm leaving soon
My doom is sealed, this feels too fuckin' real
I may be eating my last meal
Just wanna get through this living ordeal
So lemme just finish this feast and then wrap up this fuckin' spiel
Lemme meet Christ in a few seconds
Death is a blessing, I've already learned this lesson
I'm left alone anyway, this is it
This may be the last verse that I ever get to spit
Put me in the eternal, fiery pit
I wanna feel third degree burning skin
Endless suffering and wrath, the full fuckin' grit
Bodies inside out while blood endlessly drips
In the pool of fire, I take a dip
While Mephistopheles chuckles as he sits
So as I pull the trigger, you hear from my lips
Why continue here, I ain't really worth shit



Credits
Writer(s): Aaron Castillo
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