Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy

There's a numbing pain in the middle of my brain
And it hurts to look or focus on anything
The girl I'm seeing, well, she says she likes to study the brain
She reminds me that CTE is a real thing
It's hard to take it easy in this day and age
Everything with blue light is hurting my brain
And though it hurts to see and it hurts to think
I've got to deal with it or get left behind
How I wish that I could go back to my normal brain
I don't remember what it's like without this haze
And I'm scared that means I'll live out this way
And take this haze all the way to the grave
'Cause there's no pill that will make it go away
There's no antidote to help normalize me
Haven't had any proper sleep in at least 6 weeks
Doing my best loading up Omega 3s

Now I'm worried about everything that comes next
The violent mood swings and the dreams about death
Saw a doc on Chris Benoit and his rampage
He had dementia like a man 80 years of age
He had more concussions than he could count
I've only had two but the latest one's so bad
That I think that I will never be normal again
Should I see myself out? No longer cater to this

I can't see the lights when I drive
They burn my eyes make me go blind
Can't bear at all to be outside
Can't hear your voice it's way too loud
CTE's taken it all from me
When all I want is normalcy
But I'll do my best to power through
Pretend I'm okay, won't worry you