Antidote

Church saying prayers sending hope to me
Saw the fear inside their eyes when they spoke to me
Never learned to cope so how they supposed to cope with me
Writing release the pain it's an antidote for me
Saw the pity in they face, what it told to me
Think I'm hurting but it's all just getting old to me
I can't blame you for the love you couldn't hold for me
Forget the love I just pray I see an older me
Fake a smile bet you they won't even notice it
Ain't been going through it, I've been getting over it
Say I'm young but I never thought I'd be old as this
That's why I act the way I do doin older shh
Aye
Sitting with that pain daily
Got to keep it pushing let these melodies save me
Thinking back on all them situations that have made me
Wouldn't trade a wound I love the lesson that it gave me

Behind every battle scar is a lesson
Doing what I can to get away from feelin less than
And on that wrong path just wanting the pain to lessen
Along the way started seeing life as a blessing
I'm winning cause I took the loss as motivation
I'm still learning about how to love and to be patient
Smoking make me normal, so I like that sensation
But I don't drink cause I see past that temptation
I hate the bottle cause my Papa couldn't shake it
Trying to break the cycle swear my heart been feeling vacant
They don't know crazy like I do swear they couldn't take it
I want to live a life for those who didn't make it
Forget the hatred
Make a name for my name Ima make it
I'm an artist hear the pictures that I painted
I'm tired of holding back I'm tired of the waiting
Tired of the waiting
I'm tired of the waiting, tired of the waiting
Mmm
I'm tired of the waiting, tired of the waiting
Yeah
Mmm

But Church saying prayers sending hope to me
Saw the fear inside their eyes when they spoke to me
Never learned to cope so how they supposed to cope with me
Writing release the pain it's an antidote for me
Saw the pity in they face, what it told to me
Think I'm hurting but it's all just getting old to me
I can't blame you for the love you couldn't hold for me
Forget the love I just pray I see an older me
Forget the love I just pray I see an older me
Heart of gold, but the pain made a colder me
"Keep going up" what he said what he told to me
I got a feeling that this loss ain't getting old to me
Moving on but it's only getting harder
Writing songs to keep my head above that water
Left behind every single time I caught up
Fell down 9 and 10 times got up
And 10 times got up, 10 times got up
And 10 times got up, 10 times got up
Yeah

But Church saying prayers sending hope to me
Saw the fear inside their eyes when they spoke to me
Never learned to cope so how they supposed to cope with me
Writing release the pain it's an antidote for me
Saw the pity in they face, what that told to me
Think I'm hurting but it's all just getting old to me
I can't blame you for the love you couldn't hold for me
Forget the love I just pray I see an older me
I pray I see an older me
And I just pray I see an older me
I pray I see an older me
I pray I see an older me



Credits
Writer(s): Deja Montoya
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