Curtain Call

As the curtain falls
I feel your presence linger in the dark
They're looking at me standing on a stage
I've come so far but lost so much
I turn the page
I turn the page

As the last note plays
My body aches
I feel a numbing pain
Adrenaline it leaves me all alone
From friends to fiends
I can't redeem
An empty phone
Without a home

I don't think you'll ever understand
The rush, the joy, the songs, the band
It all heals my mind
Work my fingers to the bone
As people stab me for the throne
My smile stays on

I'm the clown
You laugh at me and poke from every place
The tears still painted on my face
Yeah the curtain calls
Then the curtain falls
Another sold-out show

As the people cheer
The fear is they're not cheering my career
Aiming for success but not for fame
Is my ego slipping out
Then who's to blame
Then who's to blame

As I close my eyes
I overthink the cracks in my disguise
Dopamine stay with me to survive
Applause can't cancel out the lies
The lies

I don't think you'll ever understand
The rush, the joy, the songs, the band
It all heals my mind
Work my fingers to the bone
As people stab me for the throne
My smile stays on

I'm the clown
You laugh at me and poke from every place
The tears still painted on my face
Yeah the curtain calls
Then the curtain falls
Another sold-out show

I'm the clown
I fall for all the friendly-looking smiles
Thieves who'd follow me for miles
Yeah the curtain calls
Then the curtain falls

I'm the clown
You laugh at me and poke from every place
The tears still painted on my face
Yeah the curtain calls
Then the curtain falls
Another sold-out show
I'm the clown
I'm the clown