Going Deaf

Sometimes the weirdest things/
Can be the final straw/
Today I hit two red lights in a row/
And screamed til I lost my voice/

Sometimes I think that I'm going deaf/
With the ringing in my ears/
And the shortness of my breath/

Sometimes I think I'm gonna lose it/
Cuz I'm running out of time/
And I'm out of excuses/

For the way I show up empty-handed/
To all the people that I take for granted/
And how I rush to buck a trend/
When I don't even understand it/

All the time that I've squandered/
And all the twisted shit I think about/
When letting my mind wander/

And why/
I'm such an asshole sometimes/
And why/
I can't seem to stay in line/

One day I'll focus less/
My locus of/
Controlled obsessiveness/
I'll call my sister/
And I'll visit all my best friends/

I will remember/
All the moments that I forgot/
I will embrace all I've convinced myself I'm not/

I will relinquish what distinguishes between/
I'll fall in love once I appreciate what it means/

Sometimes I think that I'm going deaf/
Cuz I'm singing out of tune/
And I'm dancing out of step/
Sometimes I feel like a failure/
And I wonder what I'm trying to prove/

But I can hear it/
Interstitially/
Something that you/
You have to squint to see/

I'll find the perfect chord/
That every song and scale's ignored/
Then I'll be back to play it/
And I hope it will be enough/