Stress

I'm trying as hard as I can
Even tho it don't feel like i'm the man
Even tho I'm sippin this bubbly
Everything comes up so abruptly
It's all just here so bluntly
I just wanna rest
It feels like lifes just a test
Life's just a pest
Feeling depressed
It's like wearing a vest
To an event that you didn;t even want to go to
But your parents made you and you don't know what to do
And you're there just part of the view

Man i been stressin
It's just a big mess and
I'm over here
Wishin i could disappear
Even tho it is my fear
To be unnoticed
Even if I'm kinda pissed
And I wanna give the fist
And even tho
I kinda wanna go

I redid my room
To not think about the gloom
Or the pending doom
Try to change the mood
To not be viewed
As a wannabe sadass
By my class
I'm just tryna pass
Not tryna cause a mass
Disruption
Or an eruption
I just need an introduction
For reconstruction

Man i been stressin
It's just a big mess and
I'm over here
Wishin i could disappear
Even tho it is my fear
To be unnoticed
Even if I'm kinda pissed
And I wanna give the fist
And even tho
I kinda wanna go

Yea put my music in
That's just how it's kinda been
Waiting for it all to begin
Even tho i may not win
I just wanna talk
I might need to take a walk
Fix me up like using caulk
Wanna fly like im a hawk
Didn't wanna get in to it
But my man i kinda blew it
I've been trying to hide it
But now they know
I need to talk bro
Now I gotta go
Even tho I don't wanna
Guess I'll eat a banana

You don't know how i've been feelin
I've been trying not to be revealin
I've been trying to seal it away
Cuz if i went missing for more than one day
You know I prolly wouldn't be here today
I ain't doing it for the pay
But more for the ease
It swept me like a disease
Like it hit me from the knees
Or having to pay fees
You know it don't feel good
To be misunderstood
Cuz what if i could
Do what he would
Cuz he doesn't know how
He might raise a brow
But the way others react
Can make you attack
But if its bad it'll stack
Cuz you could be happy
But someone is sappy
And ruin your day

Man i been stressin
It's just a big mess and
I'm over here
Wishin i could disappear
Even tho it is my fear
To be unnoticed
Even if I'm kinda pissed
And I wanna give the fist
And even tho
I kinda wanna go

But at the same time people can make it better
Make you feel like a header
Like your important
Instead of portant
Like if you just had someone to talk to
Even if it's just you
Talking to yourself can help
Even if at the end it's welp
Even if it was just a little
It can make you feel brittle
Or just tell yourself a riddle
Man i got the title
STRESS