Days Like This

I wake up, nine tons splitting my head
Gotta run but I can't quite get out of bed
Wish I was in the deep end of peaceful sleeping instead
Or maybe I'd be better off dead, I mean I mean what I said
Roll out the covers I get up and get dressed
It's tougher when you never got no one to impress
On other moons I suffer through and just do my best
But at the moment, I ain't up for the test, shit
Shake it off, put a brave face on
I race to keep pace but I fall
Pick myself up but I never get far
I'm always running but I just can't escape these thoughts
It cost me too much, and now I can't stop
But I'm stuck, exhausted enough to drop
But I'm afraid if I hesitate then I flop
On my face I may never get up

It's days like this
I hope it never stays like this
Malaise invades, shapes the ways I miss
The simpler times
I look fine but I'm limping inside
Tightening my grip but I slip
Like this
I hate it when it rains like this
When shades of grey paint names on my lips
I'm thinking that I could swim fine but I sink in the tides
Wish I never existed on days like this

Spun dizzy as I dream of another me
Too busy looking back for me to see what's in front of me
It's funny, I run to another place I want to be
But every step I take the past looks that much better to me
I travel on with glass in my bloody feet but that's when I suddenly
Collapse in a crumpled heap no one can see
Patch it up but leak like a sieve, it seems sometimes
It's not until you try to heal you realize the cut is deep
Like a castle under siege
I put up my shield but it's crumbling from the pummeling
Try to cry for help, but somebody cut my vocal strings
And honestly the only thing I want is sleep
Please, wipe eyes on my sleeve
I'm just tryna survive my disease
Want to find life, retry mine, another timeline
How can I fly if I can't breathe

It's days like this
I hope it never stays like this
Malaise invades, shapes the ways I miss
The simpler times
I look fine but I'm limping inside
Tightening my grip but I slip
Like this
I hate it when it rains like this
When shades of grey paint names on my lips
I'm thinking that I could swim fine but I sink in the tides
Wish I never existed on days like this

Blindfolded no control where I'm moving
Hold the wheel like I know what I'm doing and hope the illusion
Is bulletproof so no one sees through it
But when I crash, who am I tryna fool, ain't no one that stupid
Toting my crucifix coated with bruises
My swollen limbs going limp but the load isn't moving
It's only growing bigger over me looming, grip to hope never loosens
The more I hold to it the sooner I lose it
Prone to react, you're gonna go far, I don't believe that
But I'm the only part holding me back
But knowing there's a trap doesn't make it harmless or arm less fast
Paint the target on my back
Mark it on my neck, mark my words and drop the axe
Break my heart, just promise me we'll drop the acts
I can start to scratch in the dark for the shards of glass
And learn how to patch the cracks

It's days like this
I hope it never stays like this
Malaise invades, shapes the ways I miss
The simpler times
I look fine but I'm limping inside
Tightening my grip but I slip
Like this
I hate it when it rains like this
When shades of grey paint names on my lips
I'm thinking that I could swim fine but I sink in the tides
Wish I never existed on days like this