Water Gun

So tell me what I'm doing wrong here?
I really wanna know
And all my time is wasted on things I don't even like
No, no, no

I gotta take the fall and just be at home with these feelings I don't wanna know
I guess I'm taking the easy way out no more
And I'm doing fine without asking why
But I always gotta know the cost

It's taking all I got
It's all bottled up inside
And I wait and wait and wait to no avail
And I really think that I should stop
Before making it worse

I'm a loaded gun with words I don't have the guts to say
And it hurts to stay here waiting like, Whoa oh
I'm a loaded gun with thoughts that just collide
And then collapse and relapse
I'm just so done, thinking about a future that might never come
I'm done being locked out this way
Done
It's done
It's done and done
Done and done
Done

I think I'm waking up to a feeling I've never had before
I won't be cracking up
So good luck making me laugh
I'm only an asshole to myself

No, I don't wanna celebrate
It's no time for fun and games
I don't wanna celebrate now
No, I don't wanna celebrate
Just need to calibrate
I don't wanna celebrate now

So turn all the lights out
And turn all the lights out
Turn all the lights out
Turn all the lights out

I'm a loaded gun with words I don't have the guts to say
And it hurts to stay here waiting like, Whoa oh
I'm a loaded gun with thoughts that just collide
And then collapse and relapse
I'm just so done, thinking about a future that might never come
I'm done being locked out this way
Done
It's done
It's done and done
Done and done
Done

No, I don't wanna celebrate
It's no time for fun and games
I don't wanna celebrate now
No, I don't wanna celebrate
Just need to calibrate
No, I don't wanna celebrate now

No, I don't wanna celebrate, no