Betrayed (feat. MegaSin)

I feel betrayed, I feel broken
Like everyone is playing with my
Emotions
They stab me in the back
They're two faced humans
Only plan was to attack

Someone that I became so close with
Tore me down on a live
Then they started ignoring me
Not answering a text
And its got me questioning things
You would say, do all things with the love
And the kindness that we have
But the second I would go and turn away
You would show your true colors
And its not a pretty face
Started drama between me and some other folks
Convincing yourself im the issue, thats a joke
Sad part is I know you know
I know you know
Spreading lies like you really have no control
Ive been dealing with depression and im never getting sleep
Having panic attacks, I deal with PTSD
Im fragile but agile
Calm but im stressed
Saying I take it all personal is getting me tense
And all of the mess, is getting all of my attention
So you have my attention

I feel betrayed, I feel broken
Like everyone is playing with my
Emotions
They stab me in the back
They're two faced humans
Only plan was to attack

To my sister
A friend but not blood
Used to fight over things that were back in the day
Now were doing it again cause youre game started surfacing
But tell me, do you really think that im gonna play
Really getting jealous cause im better than you are
At the things you love to do
Now I see how dark your heart really is
Saying that youre not the same, cause you changed
Oh really then
I succeeded where you dreamed it and I thanked you all the way
You taught me what I know, but your hating never changed
Called my friend gorgeous, you were lying to her face
When I know you werent a fan
Complain about her everyday
Never liked my friend, she was always here to stay
I tried to be there for you, but you dont deserve me
You were never there for me
And I swear im that im done
No more mistakes
I dont have the room for you anymore
Okay, okay

I feel betrayed, I feel broken
Like everyone is playing with my
Emotions
They stab me in the back
They're two faced humans
Only plan was to attack

And to the woman that has brought me in this world
I dont know what to say
I tried my best to be there for you when you needed me
You took advantage anyway
Faking suicidal thoughts to get out of trouble
Meanwhile you dont even care to know my struggles
You got me where you want me, and I wanna escape
Its really hard to leave somebody that used to clean up your face
When I need you now, you always make it about yourself
Never confront the problem, I had to learn to stand my ground
Blaming me for issues, I dont wanna be around
Telling you I might have cancer
And you flip it around
Saying mine really might have come back
You never understand
Where the problems really at
Its like you gotta control everything that you can touch
Im not the reason for your struggles
And I swear ive had enough
Its all your fault
I've had enough

Maybe im not making sense anymore
Head is so scattered
My thoughts are all over the floor
Im angry that I care too much
I hate that I have no friends
When Im needing some
Now im back to square one
I gotta build myself up
But the weight is a ton
I know im not alone
But it really packs a punch
Im just being honest
And im sorry if its blunt
Losses come in threes
Hopefully, this will be
The end of the darkness over me
And thanks for the memories
I dont know what is meant to come next but
I may stumble, and I may crumble
But ill always get back up
My wife and daughter will be there for me
And no one can tell me thats not love
Love