Why Me

I paint the ground blue
with my tears
I paint my soul to
hide my fears
darkness blinds my view
Why can't it clear
When it come to life I am thru
My time is near

Please don't come into my life
if you don't plan to stay
Im hurt from all these people
walking out anyway
My heart is kinda fragile
I think it's made of clay
So lost up in this world
Walk the streets like a stray
Keep my head up to the sky
Asking God why
did he have to give
emotions to a lost soul
Not scared to die
and they wonder why
its because the pain I been thru finally took its toll
So much hate up in my chest
Tryna put my past to rest
But its so hard to do when you livin in stress
What's the purpose of my quest?
Tryna grind to be the best
I just want all this agony to digest
We were raised to not question God
But I gotta question God
Can you guide me to the life meant for me?
We pray to an entity that we can't see
I'm down on my knees asking you to be free

I paint the ground blue
with my tears
I paint my soul to
hide my fears
darkness blinds my view
Why can't it clear
When it come to life I am thru
My time is near

Negative energies cannot stop me from growing
Spark up some gas to keep me from exploding
Explicit memories keep my mind rolling
Mark on my back from the chains i'm so broken
smile on my face but could cry any moment
Sociopath cuz my heart is so frozen
Can't trust nobody i'm used to them folding
Don't say you love me we both know you're joking
just leave me alone
Let me struggle on my own
Imma make it out this storm eventually
my, trust is made of stone
wear depression as cologne
Gotta hole up in my body like Kennedy
I'm, aching to the bone
Change the number to my phone
I do not want nobody contacting me
the, love i had is gone
non existent so unknown
If, i start to catch feelings I gotta flee

I paint the ground blue
with my tears
I paint my soul to
hide my fears
darkness blinds my view
Why can't it clear
When it come to life I am thru
My time is near