Perception

Where can I go when my souls unraveling at the core
And every other step only leads to closed doors
So I soar above my consciousness
Wondering how to fix the shit
Blundering God's answer cause to me,
He just don't make sense
The mere jist of it, leaving me confused daily
Rejecting thoughts of those that said they prayed for me
Just stay away from me, your inner evil that dwells
Leeks from your pores like alcohol, I know that smell
A little too well, it wreaks familiarity
The border of giving up, across from disparity
I been there, and watched it disappear in the wind
The outcome aftermath from repenting the sin
Hurts forever, reason enduring hell's the measure
Of a man born free from and of God's pleasure
As I sever pain that I was once entwined in
And embrace Satan's grasp, no longer refined in
The blood of Christ, realizing this true life
Outside of judgement, awaken to what never was what?
There! cause I'm here now, the walking living breathing flesh
Reincarnation of the devil's asset at its best
I gets demonic, when swimming in sonics of different melodies
Spirit yearning burning revelations from heaven's seed
Neglected deed left, unforeseen progress for dead
Regress fruitful while I'm skydiving for the bread
Head first for the thirst to quench your breath of life
Dread dirt from the hurst that cinch your afterlife
If I get it right, blessed from eternity's daylight
Be the gift or my present future pass through heaven
Amongst the clouds, forever remaining miles high
Above the shore, looking down at where I was at before
What a view someone acute angle of perception
Yet obtuse when I'm viewed above suspicion
Dangle deception like a carrot for tricks you silly rabbit
Almost had it Bug bumper now I got a lunker
Bunker it down for feast willfully neglect famine
Slumber the pounds and walk it off before it cause damage
Manage weight at the gate of diminished intentions
By the key strictly based on God's decision
When intervention lacks a melaninated soul attached
Retracting grace without a trace like a soul would lack

Where can I go when my souls unraveling at the core
And every other step only leads to close doors?
I been there and watched it disappear in the wind
The outcome aftermath from repentin' the sin
But what a view somewhat acute angle of perception
Yet obtuse when I'm viewed above suspicion
If I get it right blessed from eternity's daylight
Be the gift or my present future pass through heaven
Where can I go when my souls unraveling at the core
And every other step only leads to closed doors?
I been there and watched it disappear in the wind
The outcome aftermath from repentin' the sin
But what a view somewhat acute angle of perception
Yet obtuse when I'm viewed above suspicion
If I get it right blessed from eternity's daylight
Be the gift or my present future pass through heaven
Where can I go when my souls unraveling at the core
And every other step only leads to closed doors?
I been there and watched it disappear in the wind
The outcome aftermath from repentin' the sin
But what a view somewhat acute angle of perception
Yet obtuse when I'm viewed above suspicion
If I get it right blessed from eternity's daylight
Be the gift or my present future pass through heaven