State Of Mind

What's up Elon?

How many days do you wake up
Thinking bout death
For me that's every single day
And with every single breath
I'm suicidal
And I been like that for years
No longer am I able to relieve the pain through tears
As I sit here thinking
Why does the world hate me?
Why is God leaving a child of his forsaken?
My soul aching
My hearts growing numb as the days pass
Suffocating from life
My next breath is outta grasp
And the last time I felt this way
I was so close to killing myself
Swear to God, there was no hope
It's no joke
My spirit is broke and unraveling
Thoughts of ending it all
Eternal mind traveling
Saddling that pale horse
Escaping the pain
Of life where my state of mind's
Forever ingrained
Am I insane?
Or have I come to grips
With my soul hating my flesh
And it's ready to part from it
Through death
Feeling it's best that we no longer
Share the same space
For what? when no one accepts
They only reject
And I only expect to be
Treated as an equal
Yet always surrounded by these
Demonic people
They possessed
Insides corrupted
Nevertheless
I pray for them
Even when they don't wish me the best
I just sick of life
Sick of the world and sick of people
Good souls should never be forced
To live around this evil

It's no joke
My spirit is broke and unraveling
Thoughts of ending it all
Eternal mind traveling
Saddling that pale horse
Escaping the pain
Of life
Where my state of mind's
Forever ingrained
It's no joke
My spirit is broke and unraveling
Thoughts of ending it all
Eternal mind traveling
Saddling that pale horse
Escaping the pain
Of life
Where my state of mind's
Forever ingrained

But in life
Lessons learned are hardly
Ever implemented
Like doing wrong learning better
And then practicing
Forgiveness
In an instant
Life can change going from sun to rain
Or remain the same
Depending on the level of pain
It forms a stain on the optics
Blurring up the sight ahead
Rather remain stagnant
Than walk through blood
After you bled
Done and said a million times
In fogs of a million breaths
The beats of a million hearts
Or bound to die a million deaths
Until what's left
A million corpses are headed
For a million graves
Cause nobody gave a fuck about the
Millions they could save
Unless the millions they could save
Could outlast a million days
In a million different ways
But won't help millions to get paid
They rather cool up in the shade
While you work or they play
A million fucking games
Tryna get up in your way
Stay away from toxic strays
Get on game and bout ya pay
And focus on your mental
For massive wealth
Til end of days

And feel hope
When ya spirit is broke and unraveling
Thoughts of ending it all
Eternal mind traveling
Saddling that pale horse
Escaping the pain
Of life
Where my state of mind's
Forever ingrained
I feel hope
When my spirit is broke and unraveling
Thoughts of ending it all
Eternal mind traveling
Saddling that pale horse
Escaping the pain
Of life
Where my state of mind's
Forever ingrained
And feel hope
When ya spirit is broke and unraveling
Thoughts of ending it all
Eternal mind traveling
Saddling that pale horse
Escaping the pain
Of life
Where ya state of mind's
Forever ingrained



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Writer(s): Dexter Moore
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