Voicemail

Wish I could tell myself two weeks ago
That I was wasting time
Looking for love in a place I know I won't find it
All my lonely, sad frustration
Paired nicely with
A constant search for validation

I can't even count all the pointless conversations
I think that I just liked the notifications

I don't get nothin' but your voicemail, voicemail
Trying to reach you when you're not there, not there
And you don't deserve a message at the tone
'Cause you won't pick up the damn phone

I'd always let myself just fall apart
For no reason at all
Exaggerating a broken heart
When there was no one
Why did I care, there's no spark
If I knew that those boys
Could never leave their mark
On my songs

I wish I could get back all my wasted energy
I wish that at the time, it was obvious to me

I don't get nothin' but your voicemail, voicemail
Trying to reach you when you're not there, not there
And you don't deserve a message at the tone

Oh, I heard it calling
The voice in my head
But I had it on silent
It went to voicemail instead
I tried to get through to myself
But I wasn't done playing games

I don't get nothin' but my voicemail, voicemail
Trying to reach me when I'm not there, not there
And I tried to leave a message at the tone
But I ignored the damn phone