All This Wasn't a Dream

Can someone explain to me
How to navigate in an unknown sea
How to decide on how to feel
While I count down the days I can't breathe
The days until I have clarity are not many
But feel like a century while I carry
This madness inside of me
See I've learned if you hope too early
That most of the time
It'll leave you destroyed
Especially if there's a certain person involved

But I mean honestly how can it be
You've been staying just meters away from me
In a place where thousands of souls go to sleep
You were looking right back at me
And I swear that all this wasn't a dream
It can still turn into a nightmare
But that we will see

I've been through this a couple of times
But this one's different
I thought as you smiled and said "hey"
And I know that's all cheesy as fuck
But right now it's all that I can think about
And I know it'll leave me destroyed
But I can't help it with this certain person involved