Standards

I'm tired of needing you people, I'm tired of asking for help
I know I'm not perfect and damn it I'm tired of hating myself
I'm tired of hiding who I really am just for people to like me
I'm here for you no matter what but I feel like there's no one beside me

I feel like I'm drowning in other's opinions
And I'm losing sight of the man that I used to be
I'm sorry if I let you down with the way that I changed
This shit is so new to me (Yuh)
I wanna be the best and nothing less
But I'm killing myself just to meet all the standards you set
So maybe my old friend was right
Maybe I'm awkward and bummy and socially misfit
I preach self love but I hate the man in my reflection, so guess I'm a hypocrite
Maybe the people that I call my friends couldn't give a fuck if I was dead or alive
Sometimes I just wanna lay and let the tears flow
but they tell me men shouldn't cry
I feel alone in this life that I'm in
You pick me up just to hurt me again
You stay around then desert me again
And you did this before and I let you back in
You blinded me
The promise of love made me forget the pain you incited
Because there's a hole in me And I need somebody to fix it
Yeah I need somebody to fix it I'm tired of feeling like I am a damn social misfit
If nobody likes me I promise it's fine
Cuz they gonna love me when I'm counting digits
And I'm getting bitches, cuz you know the hip hop clichés
All about money and foreigns and chains
All about hoes and the chicks that you played
Never bout how you found a girl and stayed
Never bout how you went and bought a house
All about fuckin and kickin them out
Never bout how you graduated college
Always bout stealing some hoe niggas wallet
Never bout how you settled, found the one
Always bout rollies and molly and guns
I hope that someday I can find the one I hope that I can
Without you I'm sad and alone
Like you are my home, and I lost the mufuckin key
I'm sorry I'm not enough for you
And that I can't be all the things that you want me to be
Maybe you found someone better and that's why you ghosted
And if that is true then I do get the motive
As long as you're happy then I'll be okay
Well that was a lie, I won't be okay
Depression has clouded my mind and had me up tied I think you can understand
I wish I could say that I don't even need you but gotta be honest, I really can't
I miss video calls and seeing your face
And maybe you're someone that I can replace
But looking for you in another girl
That shit's bound to be a mistake
Yeah I know that shit's bound to be a mistake
My mind is a battleground, I need a break
I wanna move on from this and find another girl
But I guess I'm kind of afraid
Cuz no other girls out there will have your face
Or put me on Cloud 9, outer space
The same way that you did
Man I feel like Cupid betrayed me and left me here broken and stupid
I need to get through this, I feel like I'm losing my mind
As I get older, I'm losing my time
Focused on you and the bitch that you used to be
Having my heart broke that shit isn't new to me
When I die, don't have a funeral or eulogy
It'd probably be empty, truthfully

I feel like I'm drowning in other's opinions
And I'm losing sight of the man that I used to be
I'm sorry if I let you down with the way that I changed
This shit is so new to me (Yuh)
I wanna be the best and nothing less
But I'm killing myself just to meet all the standards you set (It's king)



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Writer(s): Joshua Wilson
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