Backwards

All my life I've been my favorite enemy
Knocked myself out with my own anxiety
And I was breaking the gate
Always running late
Swimming in a hole; all those nights put a weight on me
(Didn't need it)
Gave myself these bruised and blacked out eyes before
Tried to reach my high, but only cracked the floor
Couldn't stand alone
Skin with no bones
Walking on a piece of a broken memory

Gotta stop myself from
Going backwards
Going backwards
Why didn't I try doing that before?

I don't wanna go on back
Four corners in the ropes, and I got no shade
Punch a hole in this heart attack
I don't wanna be that way
Gotta tell myself, "relax"
Running, but I'm going backwards
Backwards
Oh
Handling all these stacks
Twelve rounds and the timer's coming at me
Gotta keep my brain intact
I don't wanna feel halfway
Gotta let myself relax
Running, but I'm going backwards
Backwards
(Oh)

Used to think that I was better on my own
Your lips met mine, and now your face is my home
Couldn't date a friend
I was wrong and then
Knock on the door
It was like you were sent for me
(And I need it)
We close our eyes together; time for me to change
Not only for you, but so we'll both have better days
Your mouth is my drug
But I know I'm enough
My mind pulls the rug, but it won't get under me

Gotta stop myself from
Going backwards
Going backwards
Why didn't I try doing that before?

I don't wanna go on back
Four corners in the ropes, and I got no shade
Punch a hole in this heart attack
I don't wanna be that way
Gotta tell myself, "relax"
Running, but I'm going backwards
Backwards
Oh
Handling all these stacks
Twelve rounds and the timer's coming at me
Gotta keep my brain intact
I don't wanna feel halfway
Gotta let myself relax
Running, but I'm going backwards
Backwards

Handling all these stacks
Twelve rounds and the timer's coming at me
Gotta keep my brain intact
I don't wanna feel halfway
Gotta let myself relax
Running, but I'm going backwards
Backwards