SAD SONG!

I got some angels, but these demons always creeping me
Can't seem to shake 'em off, got reasons for my secrecy
Don't wanna be leaning on these feelings, no, they're killing me
You wanna talk about some grief, I'm the epitome
Yeah, I learned a lot, I'm still learning to swim
I did what I did and that boy grew to a man
At the same time, was so caught in my head
If I could go back, I'd probably fuck up again
I tell my girl that I love her, I kiss her tenderly
But I'm always thinking that there's something she's not telling me
Tryna spell it out for myself like a spelling bee but
I always tell myself I'm fine when something's wrong with me
Don't test me, don't lecture me
Not today, no, stay away
Sadboy, motherfucker, so sad

Uh aight, this is how I roll
So many doobies that I don't know where to go
Eyes closed and they so low that I don't know anymore
Now I don't go, now I'm so ghost
Off Patron shouting most dope listening to Mac Milly
Always got the blues while I'm sliding down the park, swimming
Oh my God, this is like a nostalgic feeling
When you gone, no one will even wanna talk to me
Am I wrong to be lost and forgotten?
All along I've been constantly caught in
My thoughts are a product of problems
I pray to God, at night in my apartment
But I'm a goner, I treat my girl like I don't want her
And fuck the holidays, I couldn't even see my daughter

Tripping out
Thinking about the wrongs that I've done
All the wrongs that I've done
All the things I've done you don't even know

I can read your mind yeah daddy's doing fine yeah
Except for the fact that it feels like I'm gonna die yeah
Except for the fact that it feels like I gotta lie
By myself at night while I'm laying with my open eyes
I do the right things wrong and the wrong things right
What I tell myself is some lost advice
I'm a fucking black sheep, I've been ostracized
Left out in the rain singing lullabies
Feeling really, feeling really shitty
My soul's getting darker every time that you're near me
And my heart's cracking more and more, I fear that you fear me
And I can't stop from thinking that I might be the reason
I've been feeling the stress, I've been playing pretending
Over and over again, I don't mean to offend
I just need to get rest, but there's no peace in that shit
Something's wrong with my head, so I'm so gone in the wind

Mmm, ah, ah, yeah
Mmm, ah, ah, yeah