Insomaniac
It's 3 AM again
And I'm thinking on repeat
I just try to hold my thoughts
But they won't listen to me
They say your mind is a ship
But I don't feel like Jack Sparrow
I feel like I'm the hostage
Pushed on a plank that gets narrow
And weak, it's deep
My brain tells me to sleep
But my heart won't cooperate
It won't operate ways it used to
It's like it has a mind of its own
That I'm not used to
I try to shut it out
But it's like it's got a new crew
It's captured all my thoughts in chains
Releasing hurt and pain
No more sunshines in this life
It's always dark, it rains
I know I'm sorry
If this track seems gloomy
But I swear you'd change opinions
If you really really knew me
Ain't it so unfortunate
That I got a lot of friends
They only show up on my Facebook wall
I've never seen their face
And if it comes down to who'll stand for me
Nobody's faithful, please
Austin bring the time machine and let's go
Back to the future
Coz I'm stuck in the past
I can't get out of this rut
It's like my life's under attack
I can feel it rising up
Like the waters pushing me down
Fear wants me to drown
But I won't give up this crown
I'm standing in this battlefield
I'm standing on my toes
My gun's loaded with faith
My backpack's loaded with hope
And when these voices in my head
Tell me to just give up
Fear takes a grip on me
Why can't he just shut up
Zip it
Pain, trying to drive me up to insane
I would've shoved it out the door
But that's not how it came
I made a couple calls
Just so I can fill this void
And maybe share my pain
And maybe soon avoid, again
It strikes back
Mama hold me now
I can't do this on my own
I simply can't figure how
I mean
Every man needs to have some help, but wow
Society's taught us to be quiet
And I can't figure it out
To cry, to weep, to moan for sleep
God pull me up, I'm in too deep
I'm stuck with work, I can't pull up
Voices won't shut, I'm stuck in muck
Quick sand
Pulling me down
I'm losing my ground
Look at the mirror but can't see me now
Rubbing my doubts with my music so loud
I'm stuck in this room and I wanna get out
Surrounded with people I don't know about
I'm trying to be real but these voices get loud
Rewriting the story I'm thinking about
I'm tired of crying, I'm ready to shout
I'm filled with the Spirit, there's no room for doubt
I'm changing my tracks, it's a different route
My faith has been planted, it's ready to sprout
Don't look at the pain, just look at me now
I'm back in the game
Now I'm fighting for reality
I've lost the blurry picture
Every image is a smile for me
The boy who couldn't sleep
Who was a disturbed little sight for me
Has now become the lead role
Like I'm Simba from the Lion King
This ain't no fairy tale
This is a simple tale of faith in me
The boy who couldn't sleep
Who couldn't rest
Is on a roll, you see
While trapped behind the door
He hits the floor
It's like a movie scene
You've got to lift yourself up
Coz you're Rocky
You ain't Mr. Bean
Sometimes it gets so lonely
All those homies have begun to leave
You think that you're alone
You're stressed at home
And then you still believe
As long as there's a God
Your chains are off
And you are standing free
Don't trust what people say
Your price is paid
And now you're in the lead
I can't believe I made it
Always thought that rapping's just a dream
I've always been afraid
To speak my heart out
What would people think
I'll always keep on rapping
There will always be a beat for me
If they don't produce my music
I'll beatbox my music on repeat
And I'm thinking on repeat
I just try to hold my thoughts
But they won't listen to me
They say your mind is a ship
But I don't feel like Jack Sparrow
I feel like I'm the hostage
Pushed on a plank that gets narrow
And weak, it's deep
My brain tells me to sleep
But my heart won't cooperate
It won't operate ways it used to
It's like it has a mind of its own
That I'm not used to
I try to shut it out
But it's like it's got a new crew
It's captured all my thoughts in chains
Releasing hurt and pain
No more sunshines in this life
It's always dark, it rains
I know I'm sorry
If this track seems gloomy
But I swear you'd change opinions
If you really really knew me
Ain't it so unfortunate
That I got a lot of friends
They only show up on my Facebook wall
I've never seen their face
And if it comes down to who'll stand for me
Nobody's faithful, please
Austin bring the time machine and let's go
Back to the future
Coz I'm stuck in the past
I can't get out of this rut
It's like my life's under attack
I can feel it rising up
Like the waters pushing me down
Fear wants me to drown
But I won't give up this crown
I'm standing in this battlefield
I'm standing on my toes
My gun's loaded with faith
My backpack's loaded with hope
And when these voices in my head
Tell me to just give up
Fear takes a grip on me
Why can't he just shut up
Zip it
Pain, trying to drive me up to insane
I would've shoved it out the door
But that's not how it came
I made a couple calls
Just so I can fill this void
And maybe share my pain
And maybe soon avoid, again
It strikes back
Mama hold me now
I can't do this on my own
I simply can't figure how
I mean
Every man needs to have some help, but wow
Society's taught us to be quiet
And I can't figure it out
To cry, to weep, to moan for sleep
God pull me up, I'm in too deep
I'm stuck with work, I can't pull up
Voices won't shut, I'm stuck in muck
Quick sand
Pulling me down
I'm losing my ground
Look at the mirror but can't see me now
Rubbing my doubts with my music so loud
I'm stuck in this room and I wanna get out
Surrounded with people I don't know about
I'm trying to be real but these voices get loud
Rewriting the story I'm thinking about
I'm tired of crying, I'm ready to shout
I'm filled with the Spirit, there's no room for doubt
I'm changing my tracks, it's a different route
My faith has been planted, it's ready to sprout
Don't look at the pain, just look at me now
I'm back in the game
Now I'm fighting for reality
I've lost the blurry picture
Every image is a smile for me
The boy who couldn't sleep
Who was a disturbed little sight for me
Has now become the lead role
Like I'm Simba from the Lion King
This ain't no fairy tale
This is a simple tale of faith in me
The boy who couldn't sleep
Who couldn't rest
Is on a roll, you see
While trapped behind the door
He hits the floor
It's like a movie scene
You've got to lift yourself up
Coz you're Rocky
You ain't Mr. Bean
Sometimes it gets so lonely
All those homies have begun to leave
You think that you're alone
You're stressed at home
And then you still believe
As long as there's a God
Your chains are off
And you are standing free
Don't trust what people say
Your price is paid
And now you're in the lead
I can't believe I made it
Always thought that rapping's just a dream
I've always been afraid
To speak my heart out
What would people think
I'll always keep on rapping
There will always be a beat for me
If they don't produce my music
I'll beatbox my music on repeat
Credits
Writer(s): Essence, Stephen Noronha
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com
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