Refugee Freestyle

(Is that you, S.A?)

Yeah
It's been 'bout six long years of being kicked out
I've seen my brothers putting bricks in that brick house
The only fix I see was trick a man and treat myself
I'm slicker than the brothers that was blood, and now they sickle cells
I seen it all, it's cynical
I was ahead in school
That pressure was the principle
If they knew half the shit I did, a cute lil' criminal
I know they wondered why I'm always looking miserable
You try turn water to fine wine and make it lyrical

Dance was my discipline
When I ain't have nobody
And then this music turned to more than just a hobby
God, I can't lose it now, I'm warring with my body
I was in a glass house throwing stones when shit was rocky
Said I got turf 'round town
'Cause little T ain't have no home, I was getting turf 'round town
Now I'm confused on where I'm from, I've been all over and it's fine
But different addy every time I shop online

I love you for what you did for me
To everyone that took me in, that love hit differently
Minutes to hours, just some food and electricity
And all them second mums the first to give a shit
And give some tips and tricks 'bout domesticity
I'm lyrically a mystery

That's what's setting me apart now
No pretty privilege
I'm privileged to talk
Privileged to walk
I got first world problems
And they're still two worlds apart

Hanging out the top bunk, I bunk, run as fast as I can
No money, food or bus pass, I had no time to plan
I know I ain't lay all these lyrics, it's the story at hand
And I know I ain't failed these critics, got like 40 of them
I refused refugee
That remedy, recipe start with therapy
'Cause now the presence of enemy be barbarity
I'll quit that quick fame and money, I long longevity
To match my energy

I can't work a nine-to-five
For the man above so I get no life
And so rightly I
Can't take no order from a mug
And again it's these lyrics
Don't feel I'm pushing these limits
But it's what flows to mind, so it's only right
Only time heals, innit?
They'll take me for a gimmick
They ain't get the picture 'less they're looking at the image
Only I can push the limits, so I'll let 'em all reschedule
'Cause we do 180 pivots when I'm peaking my potential

So many influencers, nothing influential
It's not okay 'cause I got milk, I'm something special?
I'm with the big boys with the big boy credentials
It's not okay, I'm in a field dancing with devils
Mummy was the devil in disguise, she got me levelling these guys
I'm still a devil in her eyes and she don't care for me
So I can't respect or idolize
Or socialize, I'm traumatized
I ostracize myself and think that I'm not there

Promptly tell you what the truth is, I'm ruthless
Product of my environment, I'm staying rooted
I can't confide in anybody, they just use it
I know who'll sell a story for the bag and then lose it
Years of feeling useless
Mum made me feel muted
It's funny 'cause they always wonder where I get my rudeness
I'm telling you the truth is
Time's the biggest healer
But forget the presidential, only you can be that leader