how i feel

I told my friends

Lately I've been staring at the ceiling
I don't ever say the things I'm feeling, no, no
'Cause that would be like way too much revealing
Gotta keep a secret 'til I need to let go

You don't ever tell me what the deal is
I don't wanna waste my time, no
Maybe we should stop with the concealing
I've been feeling blinded by my pride, oh

Up in my mind I got some things that I hide
I got emotions that show, was kind of hoping it's shy
But no I won't let you know, I keep it all tucked inside
Until you ask me to go, and now I'm wondering why, 'cause

I told my friends how I feel, you told yours the same
Why can't we just keep it real? I don't play no games, so
Hit me up if you're still down, say you're on the way
If you want to stay around, say it to my face

Never speaking to each other, gotta keep it down
But I say it to another when you're not around
When I see you, think I love you, so don't make a sound
'Cause you're mixing up the signals, will you tell me now?

Like, do you want me here, do you want me gone?
Love me when I'm here 'til the lights go on
I just wanna see your side, but I can't really read your mind, 'cause

You're telling lies like that you'd be here on time
Thought we decided on three, girl it's a quarter to five
And now your eyes are on me, so I start holding you tight
But as you're starting to leave, ask what I'm doing tonight, yeah

I told my friends how I feel, you told yours the same
Why can't we just keep it real? I don't play no games, so
Hit me up if you're still down, say you're on the way
If you want to stay around, say it to my face

Yeah, why we gotta be like this?
Every second wishing, we don't ever make decisions
Tryna keep my on my knees I wish
It won't make a difference if I told you my opinion
That it's sticking, I'ma lose my grip
One more minute, gotta lose the wind
Signal mixing, don't know who to pick
Just been wishing you're not choosing him, 'cause

I told my friends how I feel, you told yours the same
Why can't we just keep it real? I don't play no games, so
Hit me up if you're still down, say you're on the way
If you want to stay around, say it to my face