If Only

I'm sure you'd be surprised by the things that you see
Going on in my mind

Now that I'm done with school
There's just no telling what I'm bout to do
What I do, is my prerogative, and I choose
Every step I take in these shoes
If I wanna go to the moon then I smoke
If I wanna feel myself then I drink
But I haven't felt myself in a while
My body and mind is so outta sync
I thought it'd be downhill at my age
24 and I still feel like the same
Kid who had dreams of standing on stage
While the whole world screaming my name
But time don't stand still for no man
Especially if you don't got any plans
Of being great you'll just sink in the sand
They called me mad, cause I got a 9 to 5
And I'm mad, that I got a 9 to 5 it's to bad
This is not the vision that I had
I remember failing Math like oh well
I'ma be famous mom it's okay
Blew off UCT, to get on the beats
Started smoking weed, then got writers block
So Joined own the block, it took a toll on me
When I read the blogs, like Dahm

If only you could see all the things that I dream
When I'm sleeping at night
I'm sure you'll be surprised by the things that you see
Going on in my mind
If only you could see all the things that I dream
When I'm sleeping at night
I'm sure you'll be surprised by the things that you see
Going on in my mind

Now that I graduated, and I'm glad I made it
But I don't feel like I can celebrate it
I Feel underrated, under paid
So how should I ever feel motivated, I'm just saying
Cause most women think that I've gone insane
Cause she wants kids, a house and a ring
And my first goal is to be rich
I sound like a dick, but she won't admit
I tried to quit, trust me I have
But I can't get this mic out my hands
Have I gone mad? I do not know
I need directions where do I go
To the City of Gold just to sell my soul
Till they no longer love me, fuck these hoes
I been here before, I don't trust this road
Broken hearts and stolen souls
Karmas a bitch, yeeh that's all she wrote
Across the studio door before she hit the road
She said I need some time to think and some space to grow
So I paint all these pictures inside my head
To remind me that I'm not dead
I'm more alive than I have ever been
I put my whole life up on these beats
So right now you can feel what it's like to be me

If only you could see all the things that I dream
When I'm sleeping at night
I'm sure you'll be surprised by the things that you see
Going on in my mind
If only you could see all the things that I dream
When I'm sleeping at night
I'm sure you'll be surprised by the things that you see
Going on in my mind

Hip-Hop is my philosophy, I feel like Socrates
It's open season when I'm blowing tree's
You're welcome Caesar to sit down with me
It's only Shakespeare and I on these summer greens
I have these vivid dreams, of me screaming out a limousine
I'm a fiend, I guess it must be the lenazine, taking a hold of me
Is this really, how it is supposed to be
Me reading these love letters I know better
But I can't shake these night terrors, and bad weather