How to Feel

I don't care if I make you happy
I don't care if I break your heart
I just can't bring myself to feel anything
But it's not about who you are
I don't care what you say about me
Even though I used to
There's nothing left here anymore
There's nothing I can give you

I try to feel
But it's not real

I walk away from the things I wanna say
Then act like I don't feel a thing
I want it to be true
Oh, I want it desperately
But these things I want are never real
'Cause I don't know how to feel

It's not that I wanna be like this
I dread it every day
If only someone could make me see
'Cause there has to be another way

I try to feel
But it's not real

I walk away from the things I wanna say
Then act like I don't feel a thing
I want it to be true
Oh, I want it desperately
But these things I want are never real
'Cause I don't know how to feel

They think I've lived this emotional life
(Life woah, I tried woah)
And maybe I have, but the feelings left me behind
(Behind woah, I'm fine woah)
I just wanna take off this mask but it's not a disguise
(Disguise woah, it's why woah)
And the people around me wonder why 'cause I seem fine
(Fine woah, they're blind woah)

I walk away from the things I wanna say
Then act like I don't feel a thing
And I want it to be true
Oh, I want it desperately
But these things I want are never real

'Cause I don't know how to feel

I don't know how to feel
I don't know how to feel
I don't know how to feel