In The Car Outside (Abridged)

I'm in the car
I just needed to clear my head
She's in the house
With the baby crying on the bed
She's got this thing
Where she puts the walls so high
It doesn't matter how much you love
It doesn't matter how hard you try

We got a place
With a fence and a little grass
I put this film on the windows
And it looks like chapel glass
But when she turns
It's like the shadow of the cross don't cast
No blessing over our lonely life
It's like waiting for a train to pass
And I don't know when it'll pass

But I remember when she used to set the room on fire
With her eyes
Swear to God
It's like a flood of grief and sorrow from a haunted life
When she cries
Like a train
It's a lot

I dropped a line
To a flickering high school flame
We laughed about
All the ways that our lives had changed
She's up the road
About 35 miles north
Got two little boys in school
Just had a real bad divorce
And in a moment of weakness

I told her if she ever needed a helping hand
I would lend
Swear to God
It's like the part of me
That's screaming not to jump gets lost
In the sound
Of the train
It's a lot

I'm trying hard
Not to cave
Swear to God