This Is the End (Beginning)

This song is dedicated to all the people who will never hear it...

From the moment I was born I sort of
Lost touch with the person I really am
I'm still trying to decipher whether I'm a human or alien
Because what I think will be the foundation of my reality
Still contemplating how angels and demons both exist inside of me
Music is more than sound to me, it's a medicine
I like thinking about atoms, I mean, it's said they make up everything
Like the trillions of cells that are a part of me
Even galaxies and stars
I like thinking about the infrared light that shines out from my heart
The calcium in my bones and iron in my blood
And every other element that's part of the earth
And I'm certain that this wisdom changes how I see the world
And often times I think about how everything shares a common origin
And that we live in outer space
And that changes how I treat you and how I choose to live each day
It changes how I view myself, am I some cousin of a monkey
Whose DNA went different route a couple million years ago?
Am I a soul, eternal, pure, stuck in the wheel of samsara,
That's been here before as some other creature
Still trying to work out my karma?
I don't know, I really don't, and I don't think I ever will
And it doesn't even bother me
I'm here enjoying this roller coaster ride of life still
I'll still pay the bills and all the tolls and all the taxes
That the government sees fit, and I still think its bull shit
But I try my best at everything I do
From work to music to relationships
To dealing with an existential crisis
Unless I lose interest or it's something I find ridiculous
Like professional sports, super models, advertisements, the news,
Politicians, anyone on TV, money, banks, celebrities
Basically anything that isn't real
At least based on the way I feel about what's real or not
I'm a psychonaut, not a psychopath, maybe an empath
I have obsessive compulsive disorder, but only when I get stressed
I used to worry a lot, but now I worry a lot less
I have social anxiety but only around people I don't connect with
So maybe that's why I place so much value on my friendships
I'm an over thinker, but I think it helps with my creations
Sometimes people have a hard time
Keeping up with the way my mind changes
I'm a gemini, born May 24th for all the astrologers listening
I think indoctrination is another word for a christening
The only thing I know is that I know absolutely nothing
Which is knowing a lot more
Than those who think that they know something
I try to keep to myself and live my life
I don't believe in clocks or days of the week
But I do believe in time
Even though it seems to be quite relative depending on my mind
And by time I really mean the eternal now
Because the pasts in present are just figments
Like seeing shapes in the clouds
I think deep down everyone's just looking for love
I know all of the planets and their distances from the sun
Sometimes I can't believe the universe exists
It's not easy being human but to be alive is such a gift
I try not to judge others cause we're all spirits living in meat suits
I try not to subscribe to any set of beliefs or views
You wouldn't last a minute walking a mile in my mind
We'll never know our potential if we never even try
I do my best to listen when others are speaking
But sometimes my thoughts are too loud to even hear them
I look both ways when crossing a one way street
In life you get what you give and what you sow's what you reap
I enjoy being sober and most of the time I'm pretty calm
I enjoy eating mushrooms and staring at the lines on my palms
I love animals so maybe one day I'll stop eating them
If I believed in God I'd really look forward to meeting him

If something's up with me and you ask what's wrong I'll say I'm fine
I get depressed easily if I'm not productive with my time
I'm good at keeping secrets but try my best not to have any
Sometimes I romanticize the idea of insanity
I'm single, I have no kids and most of the time I'm jobless
I'm bad at keeping promises, but I value being honest
I like to solve problems but try not to create them for myself
I still don't know if I'm living in heaven or living in hell
I spend a lot of time thinking about humanity and healing it
And an equal amount of time on death
And the earth and one day leaving it
I'm not fully convinced this experience is real
After all, our reality is a product of how we think and feel
I'm passionate so sometimes I can be a bit obsessive
Like an addict, so I'm careful how I choose to manifest it
Life is long, but I think that death will seem like it came fast
I'm excited for the future cause I've let go of the past

So this is the end...
So this is the end, but every ending's a beginning
Welcome to my mind, this is the life that I've been living
This is the end, but every ending's a beginning
Welcome to my mind, this is the life that I've been living
So this is the end, but every ending's a beginning
Welcome to my mind, this is the life that I've been living
This is the end, but every ending's a beginning
Welcome to my mind, this is the life that I've been living