I HATE THAT I LOVE THAT I HATE YOU

I'm tired of staring at my phone hoping maybe you would text
My love for you is fading but you seem to be relaxed
You used to blow my phone with all those goofy calls
And I would always listen everytime you had your flaws
But since we started falling out you showing no remorse
You keep pinning everything on me like I'm the one at fault
And everytime I try to talk to you I get ignored
And everytime we reconcile your friends meddle and get involved
Man
You promised you gon stick with me but you were the first to leave
Now I'm stuck here wondering how it happened while feeling deceived
I can't believe I was also trapped inside your selfish deeds
And how I gave you the love I gave you which I never recieved
Everytime you fucking messed up I always took the blame
And hoping if I keep forgiving you my love for you will fade
Man
You made me love you with your toxic traits
And now you claiming that you loyal but you failed to keep your promise
You fed me lies while you cheated thinking that I won't notice
Now you telling me you miss me coz all you side niggas left you
Sometimes i wish you could just choke in all the things you say
You chose to leave me but surprisingly you still stuck in my head damn

I'm just Scrolling through my phone hoping maybe you would call
Wait
Man I hate you to the fucking moon and back
Still can't believe you lied to me when you told me you had back
And now I'm stuck here thinking about all the memories that we shared
You you made me love you without any regrets
And made me cherish every moment especially when we danced
We went from chilling happily while planning our baby shower to sadly watching as our Lovely baby went six feet under
If Satan ever had a twin i swear it would be you
I really thought loving you would ever hurt but girl you left me screwed
Man
You got some demons feeling up your brain
And now there's nothing I can do to take the pain you caused away fuck