,Nineteen,

Summer fading off the year '02
Fed with love by all my silver spoons
They told me 'bout dangers beyond
Through the wild, beneath the sun
But I still wanted to run
Eye reaching smile, with the best of news
Christmas toys, I was just as brand new
Baby sister, 2 years later
Secret Smile even in winter

All I know is I was golden
I started to burn out like the sun before dusk
Turned my heart to cement
Gave my all to what instead took my innocence
Wasted years, but I'm getting ahead of myself
It was fun playing with luck, but then I started to grow up

I was an alien in the 6th grade
Crooked teeth and my growing pains
Pains, oh
They told me that to love me wasn't worth the ache
So the bathroom became my hiding (Hiding) place

And I
I know it's been a long time coming
I moved around from time to time
Lost some friends now I lose my mind
Cause my heart has its own warning sign
And I don't mean to victimize
But my blood was on every invite
Stupid girl, they said so I climbed to the ledge and cried

Cause I was starting to burn out like the sun before dusk
Turned my heart to cement
Gave my all to what instead took my innocence
Reached for love, but the pain got ahead of myself
It was getting dark, playing with luck, cause I was starting to grow up

Now I pace here under gray skies
Pretend my tears are just from the rain
Or I hide out in the basement
Cause who I am is not worth the pain
And I remember happiness like a film
I watched with my friends on a past birthday
Cry laughing till we screamed
And I know we swore that we'd live till a hundred
But now I don't quite know how to get to nineteen
To nineteen

Now I hate to admit that the scars are just part of my skin
Wake to watch the sun set cause I don't know how to begin
Cry for help, wish they told me it would be this tough
I'm scared to push my luck cause I'm still growing up