Kokoro

One more day I open my eyes in hope to try to wake up
But everything still remains the same
And again I stare at walls with an old apathetic sight
Trying to see the light
This beautiful light
That made me become better
This blinding light
That made my heart tremble

I blindly wander ahead, stumbling the living walls
I fall to the ground and hardly get up
To continue my fatal fall
Deeper and deeper going into the darkness of mine
I'm trying to find a point when all of it began
In useless attempts to find the steps of a guiding light
In this thick and misty haze, I usually call my life
Washed by eternal, cold and heavy torrential rain

My life is nothing but a phantom
I think I'm already the dead one
But my heart still tremble
It still feels the pain inside

I still breath I still see the presence
Of the terror around me that doesn't retreat
As a nightmare it chase me
Making me run but I can not defeat
I want to end it being sick and exhausted
I hold my breath and jump down
Waiting for the sound of rain stop knocking the land
But a traitor heart trembling does not

Please finish it!
Finish me!
Please finish it!
Finish me!

My life is nothing but a phantom
I think I'm already the dead one
But my heart still tremble
It still feels the pain inside

I have to get up again
I have to run out of it
I have to put on the mask again
And won't ever see that light