Freely Speaking

Ayy ayy
Ugh
Let me talk about my life
Got a lot of Dirt I can take it to the grave
But that ain't the way I'm made
So I got to come right
Raised a lot of hell did my own cousin dirty
At the time wasn't worried had the time of my life
Paying for it now
Our relationship will never be the same
And I am the blame for the strife
Run it back
Ayy ayy
Let me talk about my life
Had to repent
Been Baptized since then
Praise the most High he cleaned me up nice
Got a new whip
Built a new crib
To top it all off even found my wife
Then he blessed me with my first son
Story just begun
So y'all hold on tight
This when my testimony kick in
It was summer time
Mid month of August my was 6 months Pregnant
That same night she woke me up
Contraction like pain she detected
At the time so much on my mind
Just pray that my son is well protected
So drive to the Hospital Dr like just what I suspected
That baby boy bout to be due a lot sooner then projected
Told him
Stop with the Madness
As my faces filled with sadness
He due three months before his due date
I'm like nah this can't be happening
So we in the room about to give birth
And it's still a lot going on
While my wife was focused on that
I was just praying that nun would go wrong
When he came her he was 2lb
But that boy lungs was so strong
Sixty-eight days later from the NICU my baby boy came home
So you can't say the Most High ain't cold
This took place about a year ago
Now my son a whole year old
All I can say is praise the Most High
My first son Through Christ survived
Son of my right hand
So I called him Benjamin
And Benjamin the worrier tribe
That's all I see in my baby boy eyes
Is the heart of a Champ and a worriers pride
His heart of a champ made a worrier cry
I'm tearing up now I don't even know why
Every since then I don't even much try
Just pray about it give it to the Most High
Don't know about you
But every time I do
He come through
So I'm hardly ever surprised

Imma take it back before I found the way
Childhood days seeking faith
Me and moms used to hit a church in the 9th ward
This when the Most High first touched my heart
I was like 17
Sitting in the pews while they praise and sing
Then this warm sweet feeling came over me
Til this day I can't explain it was comforting, though
Tears start rolling
Couldn't control it
Heart beating thru my chest
Felt a sense of relief
Didn't know what to think
But the feeling always stuck with me
Few years later off to college
Popping bottles women round me
Darkest hours demons seem to find me
Screaming swinging seeking plenty violence
Ugh
None of yall boys want problems
Step to this street if you bout it
Been scrapping since toddler
Grew up fighting my patnas
Summer time rumbles by Lawrence
So who want that action
My life been stuck in a panic
And I got some terrible habits
My girl tryna save me
Talking bout God and the savior
Told me we Israelite babies
We suposed to be kings and follow our God
I'm full of this liquor I can't see the signs
My uncle D taught me Crown Royal and that's the king that I'm gone be
Can't turn to no God
He won't accept me
Man you don't know half of the stuff I done seen
Some stuff I can't mention
Me and my bigger sister
And my grandma house was Christian
How could we ever forgive him
How could I come to yo God
That put me and my pain aside
She went to talking bout healing
And praying it's all bout repentance
Just study scriptures
That conversation changed me
Church visit the next weekend
That feeling I got when I was 17
Came back and hit me again
In Christ name I got baptized
I'm cleansed now I'm healed now in YASHAYA'S name I've been crowned
I'm his now without a doubt
His truth done changed my life
My girl became my wife
Still in this walk 2 years later
All praises to the MOST HIGH

Ever felt love in your life this before
Thank God cause YASHAYA saved my soul
In a world where we all feeling broke
Faithless not too many sowed in hope
Been through a lot
Seen brothers dreams die
Seen shots shooting up the parking lot
Seen bodies drops
Try not to cry
In the back full of shame of cops car
God coulda took me there
Beware, the scares, the scars, in awe
In all I do Is give thanks
I pray for ways That my flesh I can escape
Dream big as a kid everybody break the bank
Brothers banging but in life we have choice
God moved me just to use my voice
Give him praise but the homies nah
So the hallows still making that noise like
Fa, Fa, Fa
Roll the window up tires screeching seen a couple lost souls falling
Drop, Drop, Drop, Drop, Drop
And I was baptized
Anyone can make it out as a sinner
Here's the gate that the sheep outta enter
I'm just here just to paint that picture
Left the liquor just to hit that scripture
Praise AHAYAH lift YASHAYA
It's Required, this the fire that was in that bush
No one's higher, just inspire
Glorifying newly bodies I seek that look
Fornicating I ain't know no better
Sin can take you down if you let it
I'm just tryna take out what's leavened
YASHAYA died just to make you better
Praise AHAYAH for goodness sake
Outta follow that righteous way
Now it's time to show love today
No ones perfect all made mistakes
Now's the time to choose yo path
Praise AHAYAH the First and Last