Kidz Die II

Hey daddy um I um I'm getting ready to go to bed
And goodnight
May the Lord watch between me and thee
While we're absent one from another
Jesus name we pray Amen

Whole time I thought you would get taken out by crooked cops
Not a faulty heart that I gave you tryna stop
So many meets you would think we owned a butcher shop
Had to beef up the staff to see you out alive
Never take the butchers advice on how to cook
If he knew he'd be a chef there's only one God left
When I pray I hope it never fall on ears that are deaf
That'd be the the death of me and only that would rescue me
And I'm still not certain that that would end all my hurting
So I prolly wouldn't do it although I would prefer it
Your brother don't deserve it, and your mother don't deserve it
And I'd prolly have to convince her that her life is worth it
It's crazy how we have a kid and think so frivolous
Like will he be gay Like will he be straight
Like will he be tall enough for da NBA
That's unstable masculinity I must say
Cuz I don't give a damn about none of that now
I just wanna see you play Fortnite and smile
I just wanna see you eat a real meal and get it full from it
I just wanna see you rebound 'Dre Drummond
That ventilators keeping you up beep
I wonder if my ask is too steep
I wonder if my prayers are too deep
Only thing with more depth is the medical debt yeah

They don't wanna see me cry
Tryna keep these tears inside
Tryna keep the dream alive
I will never understand why
Why you let the little ones die
Please just keep my son alive

I'm a much better father than I am a man
But fuck it, that's the biggest thing that's in demand
Now behold the Lamb this ain't green eggs and ham
They say don't reach out yo hand but Sam I Am
Support from the family is the greatest gift
They step in I step out and make the greatest hits
So many colors in these raps, this ain't flavored spit
This don't feel sweet; it feels like Make A Wish
Everything they taught me about being dads a lie
Be tough, Be strong, Never let 'em see you cry
Ain't no strength in that, ain't no courage in that
You won't figure that out until yo kids about to die
If it wasn't for you, me and yo mama wouldn't a made it
Cuz the last thing we wanted was two homes and a baby
We put up with each other and we learned to grow
We had a kid when we was kids we tryna see grow old
So Tap In, Tap In, Tap In Again
You can't tap out now or I'ma end up in the pen
John Q forreal if they can't save you
This feel like a movie that need to stop playing
But I practiced my whole life for this moment
I'm spiritually grounded thanks to mama
You got prayer warriors in yo corner strapped for battle
Hijack the devil like look at me, I'm the captain

They don't wanna see me cry
Tryna keep these tears inside
Tryna keep the dream alive
I will never understand why
Why you let the little ones die
Please just keep my son alive

They say God trying to talk to me and he using you
But what God needs attention enough to use the youth
So if you want my attention then show yo face nigga
Burn this bush up in front of me and just say it nigga
If I never told you, you wasn't an accident
I knew exactly what I was doing when she looked back at it
And said give me a baby I said you want a baby
She said give me a baby and then I went brazy
I don't ever want you stressed over material items
And you should leave any woman who want a bigger diamonds
To shine a little more brighter she need a little more Guidance
Cuz that means she could be bought just to break her silence
And I hope you never fall into the holes that I dug
The apple never falls far from the tree but a seed does
So plant your own roots and live for you
So get up off this bed boy and do you

They don't wanna see me cry
Tryna keep these tears inside
Tryna keep the dream alive
I will never understand why
Why you let the little ones die
Please just keep my son alive
They don't wanna see me cry
Tryna keep these tears inside
Tryna keep the dream alive
I will never understand why
Why you let the little ones die
Please just keep my son alive