Dear Mom

Way before the drama with my father down in Florida
My mother was just a youngin', scared, pregnant in the corner
Her momma yelling don't keep it like losing tickets from lotto
Sorry gram this ain't a secret I'll apologize tomorrow
Plus my daddy older, mister redneck Casanova
Cutting grass for cash until his ass was passed out on the sofa
You were mad and upset, I give you massive respect
Shit if I had a pup that young I'm bringing it back to the vet
I used to lack the regret, Until my lesson was learned
Not every persons living perfect with directions to turn
These Mistakes are made and often fade like chemical burns
Until they hit you on return like impeccable serves
Forever remember these words
I know that you tried
Sacrificed the flashing lights just to open my eyes
So what if our cash was tight, I gained focus and pride
Forever grateful, reminiscing while I smoke and I drive

Momma I'm calling, calling
But you never seem to pick up the phone
Pick up the phone
It's been a couple months since we talked
I was busy living on my own, living on my own
Now I hear that you're falling, falling
Your body feeling sick to the bone
Sick to the bone
Just know I'm there to help
Until they put your name on a grave written in stone

Fast forward a few years past the bunks and the jammies
I'm fighting punks who making fun of my dysfunctional family
Struggle with money while others having lunch with their nanny
Teens spoiled with the clubs up in the trunk of a camry
I was, something in trouble always huddled with the beats and raps
Frustrated with our relations via screaming match
Communication was non existent on either side
Maybe that's the reason why this heathen had a need to fly
Escape the dangerous anger from all angles
Elevate the weight fore we break like small ankles
It's not that I didn't love you, I just packed up and left
When you're forced to grow up faster that's a natural effect
In case you missed i'm living distant hoping you call
Apologetic for the times that I was broken and raw
Just know your son is fine and still don't mess with coke in a stall
So if your boyfriend ever acts up then i'm hoping to brawl

Momma i'm calling, calling
But you never seem to pick up the phone
Pick up the phone
Its been a couple months since we talked
I was busy living on my own, living on my own
Now I hear that you're falling, falling
Your body feeling sick to the bone
Sick to the bone
Just know I'm there to help
Until they put your name on a grave written in stone

It's the final chapter, I willingly skipped the details
Heard you quickly vanished like Hillary Clinton's emails
The times are rough, just look at last May wow
You went from homeless alcoholic to a halfway house
And I was Proud
Now everyday that I don't hear a word or two
Makes me nervous and worried that somebody is hurting you
Taking advantage or planning the worst
It's all deriving from the bottle that you carry in purse
It's liquid poison momma
You gotta pick your choices carefully
Remember when you promised that you would always be there for me?
Listen to the writtens, rejoice through transparencies
Speaking from the heart this is a different voice of clarity
But apparently my scriptures un-clear
All i'm trying to say is calm down and stick to a beer
Or you can end up begging like blonds who swim on the pier
I only wrote this cause I love you and i'm living in fear

Momma i'm calling, calling
But you never seem to pick up the phone
Pick up the phone
It's been a couple months since we talked
I was busy living on my own, living on my own
Now I hear that you're falling, falling
Your body feeling sick to the bone
Sick to the bone
Just know I'm there to help
Until they put your name on a grave written in stone
Momma i'm calling, calling
But you never seem to pick up the phone
Pick up the phone
It's been a couple months since we talked
I was busy living on my own, living on my own
Now I hear that you're falling, falling
Your body feeling sick to the bone
Sick to the bone
Just know I'm there to help
Until they put your name on a grave written in stone
Written in stone