Love Is a Lie

Still wondering why you really couldn't see it
All the things that I would tell you
I would mean it
When I looked at you, it felt like I was dreaming
But you're gone again
I'm battling my demons

Is love all a lie
Is worth it to try to go and find my way
I don't wanna move on
But I gotta strong
But I'm wanting you to stay
You're stuck in my head
And I'm tryna forget all the things I would've done
Walk a lonely street
Sail the 7 seas
Cause I thought you were the one

Does he call you princess
Cuz I know you like that
Rose gold on the table
And a black and white strap back
Not a hit and quit thing
When it comes to you I really wanna wife that
Wanna take you cross LA
And around the bay
Cause I know you really wanna see that

I just wanted to be your everything
I wanted to be the song you sing
I was blind by the love and joy you bring
Thought you were an angel who lost her wings

I'm so afraid to let you go
But
I feel like you'll only care once I am 6ft down below

Cuz love is a lie
And I'm wondering why
I just wasn't enough
I pretend that I'm fine
That I'm staying in line
But my friends all call my bluff
You're stuck in my head
And I'm tryna forget all the times that were too tough
Can't cry anymore
If I do, it's for sure that I will never stop

I know I shouldn't miss you
But I do
It hurts but I still see the good in you
I know that you ain't good for me and I should let you go
This shit's the concept of my death
When you're around, I can't say no

All those times and late night drives
If I somehow do survive
I want you know that I wanted you permanent in my life
I said I wouldn't ever fall in love but one night there you were
So damn beautiful
So perfect. Tell me
Where'd you get the nerve

To be the way you are
You found my heart and somehow made your way
I ain't used to feeling feelings but my feelings will remain
Cuz in spirit you're still by my side and smiling every day
But the physical side of it
You got up and walked away

I'm still wondering why you really couldn't see it
All the things that I would tell you
I would mean it.
When I looked at you, it felt like I was dreaming
But you're gone again
I'm battling my demons.

Is love a lie
It's has to be
I tried to treat you well
Throughout all the times I put you first, you still put me through hell
Am I crazy
Am I stupid
For still feeling way too much
I can't believe it
You deceived me
Yet I still give you my all
Cuz I. Still love you
Cuz I. Still want you
Baby. Now