By Now

Bouquet in the trash can
Everyone I love is gone
Still addicted to my chapstick
Kisses of my lips so soft
But there ain't nobody to receive em
Ex was correct for not believin
Fell into the future she don't wanna be in
Empty and my pockets still bleedin
I'm grievin even though nobody died
If I'm gonna make it couldn't tell ya how
Not the type to worry but I'm terrified
Go back to my parents I would rather die

I'm supposed to be a grown man now
Spose to make it on my own by now
Be a king upon my throne by now
Have a queen and get it on by now
I'm supposed be a don by now
Have a daughter and a son by now
I'm supposed to be a wise man now
But I'm feelin like a lost young child

I don't really wanna need no help
But I think I really need your help
I don't really wanna need no help
But I think I really need your help
I don't really wanna need no help
But I think I really need your help
I don't really wanna need no help
But I think I really need your help

They say it take a village
To raise a young bull
We turn eighteen
And they throw us to the wolves
Was hungry and independent
Pursuing my dreams
Was killin it for a minute
Then everything changed
But now I got a biness facade to maintain
Feels like I ain't a man
If I ever need a hand
Feels like I ain't a man
If I ever need to cry
Feels like I ain't a man
If I ever need God
If I ever need God
It's pronto
Pride before the fall
And I fell low
Shame is not the same as humble
Bloody broken and broke
Still talkin bout makin moves
Tryin to cut a deal
Like lemme do this for you
Never receive love
Just countin up what I owe
Promise I'll double that
Once I get back on my two
Never stoppin to heal
Just covering all my wounds like

I'm supposed to be grown man now
Spose to make it on my own by now
Be a king upon my throne by now
Have a queen and get it on by now
I'm supposed be a don by now
Have a daughter and a son by now
I'm supposed to be a wise man now
But I'm feelin like a lost young child

Aint no level you supposed reach
Aint nobody you supposed to be by now
Everybody got lows and peaks
Just be open to the help you need right now
That's the way that it's supposed to be
We're created for community right now
Not in love with the potential me
Fall in love with who the mirror see right now

Aint no level you supposed reach
Aint nobody you supposed to be by now
Everybody got lows and peaks
Just be open to the help you need right now
That's the way that it's supposed to be
We're created for community right now
Not in love with the potential me
Fall in love with who the mirror see right now

Never let your self worth
Be determined by
What you want people
To think you are
I know you're gonna go
Through moments where you feel like
I'm not enough
Or I need to be more
Or I need to do more
But know that
Whatever you are at that moment
Whatever you're doing at that moment
Is enough
Because God made you enough
And that's all you need to know



Credits
Writer(s): Micah Bournes
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