catharsis (acceptance) (feat. Kevin Kawano)

This cut too deep, I gotta go
Miss all the times that we'd get stoned
Without you I feel so alone
No, I can't ever return home

I moved so far
Leased a new car
So I could be a star
They used to laugh
When I felt sad
Don't want to be my dad
Remember the times we would go out to target
Steal all the meats off the shelf like we bought them
Hightstown was dark with cat hair in the carpet
Lisa loved drugs so she went out and sought 'em
Wish I could see her again and just hug her
Can't bring myself to reach out to her mother
Supposed to get easy, but it's gotten harder
Didn't say goodbye last time that we parted
We grew up together, was just getting started
Hit balls with the tether and laughed when we farted
Smack overdoses, they tore us apart and
Didn't know she died, 6 months in the dark
Damn
Should of checked in back when things got too messy
Now that she's resting, too late for confessions
Life has been hard and God has been testing
I would lying if I never mentioned
How reaching out to my friends was a blessing
If you need help, you can reach out I'll listen
If you need help, I promise I'll listen

It cut too deep, I had to go
Miss all the times that we'd get stoned
Without you I feel so alone
No, I still can't return home
In the streets we used to play
Don't want to pass them every day
You know I had to move away
So I could get my head okay

I moved so far
Leased a new car
So I could be a star
Now they don't laugh
I don't feel sad
I know I'm not my dad
I've been an addict, addicted to love
I started rapping to avoid them cuffs
This is for Sam and this is for Jimmy
This is for all of my friends who ain't living
Wherever I go I carry them with me
Used to effect me and make me live risky
I would get mad at mom and act pissy
Now we talk all of the time, it's uplifting
My mind has changed my attitudes shifting
For the first time, feels like nothing is missing
They called me funny, they thought I was kidding
When I moved away to be a musician
Could never focus back then so it's fitting
After 12 years made an album that's hitting
My mind is steady, I'll take all the testing
When I was younger it all seemed like wishing
But now I'm ready, I know it's my mission
I know I'm ready, I know it's my mission

It cut too deep, I had to go
Still miss the times that we'd get stoned
Without you I feel so alone
But now I think I'm coming home
In the streets we used to play
Prepared to pass them soon some day
No need to be so far away
Now that I'm starting to feel okay