No Tomorrow

"There is a way that seems right to a man
But for him, there's only death in the end
Even in laughter, the heart has sorrow
And in the mind of a man, there's no tomorrow"

Guess a pessimist inside
Despite effort getting therapy, the mental health declined
When your inner me is an enemy, no energy to fight
You can deaden your expressions, but the pain will never hide
Something really ain't right
Worse than feeling stage fright
Memories turned nightmares, soul to kill in plain sight
Damned by the fantasies, wishing it would fade like
Darkness lowering by increasing daylight
Take flight, the high will make it vanish
Used to abuse you, why still take advantage?
C-PTSD, thy can make it manage
Affects all your loved ones, price you pay, titanic
But you stand it, never had a chance to get romantic
Try to hold your heart, couldn't plan to stick your hand in
Want a kid and wife? Better abandon what you planning
Long as you stay quiet, don't get manic when you panic

"There is a way that seems right to a man
But for him, there's only death in the end
Even in laughter, the heart has sorrow
And in the mind of a man, there's no tomorrow"

Should've known what they did to you was wrong but you didn't
Stolen innocence under control of other children
But at - shouldn't be alone in beginning
With a r- looking fully grown, when she isn't
Then again, it was pleasant, permission granted to heaven
Didn't try to fight you, playing doctor, innocence beheaded
Never even fretted, sanity neglected
But how can I blame you? You were only seven
Yet she continued, what did you expect?
Wanted you to lift her shirt up every moment she's erect
Kept it going to your teens, brainwashing you to death
Came prematurely prior puberty effects
Didn't think to speak up, never got apologies
Ruining the life of what could've been a prodigy
Now dreams involving her, silently you got to scream
"She's like my b****, why is she on top of me?"

"There is a way that seems right to a man
But for him, there's only death in the end"