My Own Enemy

Yeah, some days I don't feel like a human being
I got these demons in my head, it's like a colosseum
They tell me yes, they tell me no, I cannot comprehend
They said it's easy, they said James look it's just common sense

My conscience bends my calm intent like a bombing threat
They bite like Tyson, I'm Robin givin' no boxing yet
Some days I'm good, some days I'm not
They just don't understand
I wanna die, but the man above he got other plans

Other plans for me to thrive and I'm just hoping still
My hope is real, I hold the steel just to know the feel
Of what it's like to have power know just what I can wield
I got the will, but I don't know if this is how I'm built

See all these comments they talkin'
I'm only seeing nonsense
Uhh, I'm disgusted never being wanted
In my head it's like a never ending process
Always fighting in the mirror with the monster

All these demons on my back, yeah they killin' me
When the world falls apart, I'm my own enemy
See I been trynna make it out, but they ain't lettin' me breathe
And I been movin' every day I go until I'm deceased
All these demons on my back, yeah they killin' me
When the world falls apart, I'm my own enemy
I been trynna make it out, I keep my hope in the dark
Cause I know one day I'ma shine
And change the world with my heart, yeah

As I sit here surrounded by just a dark room
I see these figures, they run around like a cartoon
I'm off soon, I'm hoping for better all knew
What I was capable of, I never stopped you

They think I'm Superman, just cause I carry weight
Don't mean I got the upper hand, I'm really struggling man
I hide behind all of this money in this rubber band
I feel like I ain't really moving do the runnin' man

Got the money it don't tell you my value
Addicted to all these narcotics, talking pills and the valium
I'm lookin' for a better day, it feel like hope just decline
Cause they will never know the pain
And yet they still try define me

In this world I know I got myself
Who to trust and who to love, like what is really wealth
I tried my best and yet they put my feelings on a shelf
If I die will they remember what I did to help?

All these demons on my back, yeah they killin' me
When the world falls apart, I'm my own enemy
See I been trynna make it out, but they ain't lettin' me breathe
And I been movin' every day I go until I'm deceased
All these demons on my back, yeah they killin' me
When the world falls apart, I'm my own enemy
I been trynna make it out, I keep my hope in the dark
Cause I know one day I'ma shine
And change the world with my heart, yeah



Credits
Writer(s): Nathan Grieger, James Pak
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