Wonder

Yeah I got love for my block but I just gotta leave it
When I lost yellow my first words I can't believe it
I got two sons I had no dad I can't repeat it
This shit a cycle and we could change but if we see it
I call my brothers mad niggas they can't be defeated
Stay away from bad vibes probably why you never see me
Paint me as a bad guy really this shit isn't easy
I don't need no allies nigga my circle completed
I gotta' team and I'm tryna' lead it
I caught a case and I'm tryna' beat it
I gotta' dream more like a vision but is hard to see it
Feel like I'ma' addicted to pain don't wanna relieve it
They say everybody need love but I don't really need it
Cus they don't really look for you if isn't convenient
Nigga like me won't rap about it if I never seen it
Niggas said they gonna ride for you and don't neva' mean it

And I wonder
How It'll be it if you was still wit me right now
And I wonder
Who's gonna' come kill wit me right now
And I wonder
How would it be if I leave right now

Would it be the same
You got me thinking different
And I've been shooting with aim I ain't thinking about missing
Me and Lou got in our lane and I don't see it switching
We get mad and spin the block we don't get into bitching
Niggas scream out loyalty don't know the definition
I could only blame myself for the way that I'm living
Me I've been through hell they don't know I'm how feeling
After taking all these loses still thinking of giving
And I don't know who to trust I'm thinking of ditching
Cus Niggas what you to fall when you be on a mission
Now that you gone I know is wrong I got different addictions
And I ain't talking about this cup and none of these prescriptions
I'm talking bout' loading my gun somebody going missing
I'm talking bout' spinning them blocks I love to hear it clicking
Maybe I'm off my limits
But I need myself
Maybe I'm off my limits and I did too much
But I owe myself
And I blame myself
And I don't need help
Cus I know myself
And I Just Roll my shelf
We don't need no one else
If you busy I go myself
You don't know how I felt we might be the only ones
Probably did more hits than niggas that be owning guns
Forgot to tell you A' and Zelly that i owe you one
You know I put you on and tell you if i notice nothing
You know if they don't know my story I don't roll wit' em'
My mind be everywhere I really gotta' focus up
Gotta' stay consistent only way we gonna keep going up
And when they see us ain't no telling these niggas know is us
I swear the way this shit been going we the chosen ones
And we gon finish what we started we holding up
You ain't living like you Yellow if you folding up
I was going through steps backs but I ain't slowing up
I've been drinking for two days I gotta sober up
Taking Percocet's keep drinking and I'm rolling up
I was thinking like this way before I was growing up
I've Been putting up a fight like is for my life
Like a nigga tryna' win the golden glove

And I wonder
How It'll be it if you was still with me right now
And I wonder
Who's gonna' come kill
With me right now
And I wonder