Overthinking

Overthinking, just been drinking
Sinking to the ground
Looking for a ledge to grab, and ain't one
Can be found

Overthinking, getting lifted
Staying above the clouds
Grab a girl, a beer or two, and
Listen to the sound

Come on you know the flow is
Magnificent
Had my wings cut off just like
I'm maleficent

Having trouble getting what I want
Been thinking sometimes
So I grabbed a pencil put some words
And damn I got rhymes

Overthinking is my problem oh lord
Please let me know
A lot of people say they love me
But I always stay low

Thinking that I cut off people
But I pushed them away
And I still blame they dumb asses
Even to this damn day

But well fuck em I don't need them
It's a new damn year
And I think I found my calling
Yea it's crystal clear

Gonna take it day by day and get
Better than before
Just like crack here's a sample
Then I get you wanting more

I'm like every other rapper yea
Yea I'm sure it was a hobby
Then mentalities had changed
Thinking who gonna fucking stop me

I don't need to use big words and
I don't need to change me pace
And my analogies are simple
But they'll slap you in the face

Chronicles of overthinking is
What I call my fucking novel
Cuz I don't see me as a rapper
Yea I look more like an author

Only few can do this shit
Telling stories with their words
K, Soul, Cole, and Logic, all ya'll
Others are absurd

Yea there's others I can't shout out
Cuz I'm limited with time
But if you let me do a feature
Shit I'll do that for a dime

Cuz I don't care about the money
Give two fucks about the fame
I just wanna share my story
And let ya'll know my fucking name

Unown, I said it once and yea
I'll say it fucking twice
I'm gonna latch on to your head
Eat at your scalp like I'm a lice

Once I sink into your mental
I'm gonna influence your mind
And you think that I'm like others
But I'm just one of a kind

Lotta rappers spoke my mind before
I really had a chance
And I'm here to move your heart
And I ain't here to make you dance

So many people in the game
Say they wanna touch a generation
But with the shit I see in public is it
Really worth saving

Holding on to hope that I can
Learn from my whole past
But it's hard to keep the faith
My belief is fading fast

Wanna commit to something true
And fucking take it to the max
But I think about the effort, smoke
A bowl and just relax

What's my point? I don't have one
I'm just spitting out of spite
I'm self conscious bout my voice
Keep my mouth shut and just write

Overthinking, yea that shit has already
Claimed my damn life
Spending so much time together you
Would think that she's my wife

Never thought that I would ever
Reach this fucking level
Never thought that I would fall in love
With bass and trippy trebles

People say I got the words
But do they really feel my flow
Hit me up on snapchat, cdotcole
And let a nigga know

Holy shit, did he just do that?
Did he give his info out
Bet I'll get one hundred titties
Fifty bitches that's no doubt

You so cocky in your room
And such an asshole when you write
But when you walk around in public
Your sincere and so polite

I'm just living life to blueprint
It's so fake and not so true
Do you really believe the media
And all that they tell you

Overthinking about the government
And what they tend to do
Or domestic violence, is that touchy?
What's your point of view

These are thoughts that pop up randomly
All inside my head
And yea I even start to wonder
Hey is Tupac really dead

What if everything we're taught in school
Is just one big lie
Overthinking gets you guessing
Makes you start to question why?

Everything I've learned till now
It seems just like a waste
All I do is sit and wonder
What's that called? procrastinate

Am I doing school just to get my
Parents off my fucking back
Hey mom and dad, I'm hurting bad
Can you cut your son some slack

I admit that I've become my
Mother's oldest evil seed
Shady grabbed my brain at such a
Young age, yes he did indeed

I wanna know what this feeling is
Do I wanna scream or cry
Never thought of suicide, but I
Ain't afraid to die

If I woke up found myself in hell
Next to Satan's gate
Wouldn't trip, I'd ask the usher
Will it be a long wait?

I've accepted my fate
But didn't fucking sell my soul
I just buried myself into a
Never ending hole

Will I ever get out?
Or is it just too late for me?
Overthinking claimed a victim
It's my mind, now can't you see

Overthinking, damn my head
Is about to fucking explode
Run for cover, bout to go off
Like my name's electrode