Self Rule

The love undertones of when you mock me
They never existed
I was reading between the lines
And I'm fucking delusional

I said it in Thorns I will say it again
If i want to grow Then I must to walk in the shame
And you'll get hear to hear it in front row
All those things that I'm shameful of
I've been writing lots of stories
that evolve into a couple to songs
Pouring my heart into some poems
Of a girl that has forgot
About me, about what happened
About all that I felt
She's not responsible
For me feeling disposable
Yeah that's on me
That's my fault
That's what I get for feeling
Entitled to a privilege that I thought would fill me
Loving the guy in the mirror is not an easy task
I've learned it can only be done by "me" "myself" and "I"
I've changed my hair and my dressing style like 50 fucking times
My physique my routine and yet i'm never satisfied
With the way I look and not even the way I fucking stand
I keep begging those around me to tell me the truth
So far my sister's been only one to see it through
I bet you're wondering why the song is named self rule
Listen carefully because I'm about to tell you truth
This one will help you start using your feeling as a tool
After tears of sadness often come the tears of joy
That's the contrast that will give your life a bit color
Learn to control that fact and life will yours to enjoy
Just listen to my voice and doing the rest should be no problem