Me Vs Me

I was slept on, passed over, stepped on
Niggas saw me tryna quit this music shit & Carried on
I devote my heart & soul to hard beats & microphones
Tryna do this shit until I'm skin & bones, dead & gone
But then again, the people keep me teetering
Pressing me for platinum songs, it's getting way beleaguering
Hear the disses sizzling, I hear the snakes they slithering
I'm pitiful & down bad, music might be the reasoning

Don't be simple nigga, crying over spilled milk
Life is never hard
This shit is smoother than yo mama's silk
If you call yo self a king, then yo crown should never tilt
Why the fuck you stressing over everything you fucking built?

Shit, cause I'm hungry nigga
And over time that hunger builds & then you lonely nigga
Many times I felt depressed because I miss my sister
But people say she's watching me, she always with a nigga
Damn, but still I feel like people abandon me
Watched these women fuck me up & take all my sanity
Watched how fake friends tested all of my humanity
I was praying for Grammys but they told me it was fantasy
But I don't think I'm too far
I might cop a few plaques before I buy me a car
I make bold acclamations & they call it bizarre
Like Mufasa brother man I'm really used to the scars

If you used to it, why complain then?
Ain't you tired of rapping & remaining in that space again?
I think you falling off
I don't think you meant to win
Pressure is behind this door
But you scared to just kick it in

I ain't scared I'm cautious
I learned tremendous lessons
I speak to lost souls
I helped convicted felons
I made a change for myself
And I ain't use a weapon
If the industry don't let me in just know my peoples stepping
I was meant for greatness cause the greatest people told me so
I could build a slept on dynasty like San Antonio
I know I'm a legend
I'm gone break records for radio
I just wish inside you felt the same but you hate me though

I don't hate you bruh, I just cant really take you
High hopes, but you don't know that life gone devastate you
You don't know that pride gone drive away whoever faithful
You don't know what's fake or not, so watch who next betray you

Admittance been the first step for everything
I admit, I let some people in who stripped me clean
Been conflicted it's either microphones or choppas sing
But I don't want my girl to worry when her cellphone ring
I been thinking lately
Maybe you should just go
I know I need that balance
Good & evil thoughts the flow
But I need to trust my own self so I can blow
Cause you been holding me for 10 years but you just won't let go

I apologize for any hurt I caused your soul
Or bad influences with individuals
It's kinda bogus
I'm the one who made you cold
But them peoples had me fucked up so I got so bold
I'm glad you turned to the strongest person that you knew
I could just wait for the answer, but you know it's you
You know you can keep pushing & just make it through, yeah
Just trust God & Chacon and they'll see you through