Race Against The Clock

I know you're listening to me but thank you for the visit,
Giving me a chance of greatness but I know I'll miss it,
But I've been thinking maybe I should end this and to quit this,
Make this my last album let it go and let it sit in,
But I know if I do that I'll just hop back on it,
Making songs of all my demons then making a profit.
But I all keep writing these songs containing all of my faults,
So fans listening know I'm pour my heart into these songs,

But now I can feel it coming, I'm sensing all it's presents,
I get reminded of this feeling every other second,
It's like a growing feeling, a taking over sensation,
But what do you expect when you try to exceed expectations?
Now the storm is growing colder,
Arms resting on the shoulder,
My thoughts are getting bolder,
I know I'm growing older,
My beats now getting deeper,
My ankles started shaking,
My heart is getting weaker,
My vocals bout to break it,

The bells are ringing? They're ringing for me?
Ready for a surprise? And you'll have to see,
Oh how exciting, what's it gonna be?
An real introduction to the real me,
Time to get messy, pull up the sleeves,
And if feel a little queasy? Then you'll have to leave,
Cross your heart and you'll hope to bleed,
Cause that's what I do for the air I breathe,
They kept on saying I will be a no name,
Till I came in, walk into the mainframe,
And I beat the game like I own the game,
And the sirens who speaks never seen again,
I remember the times when they shake me till I'm broken,
The bullying back then was just the tip of all my problems,

I am labelled as a victim, But society said I had to be a man,
So I shut my mouth till the crimson stains,
Till I had a breakdown all over again,
For three whole years I had no sleep,
A real nightmare, Get me out this dream,
I was depressed and I hide it down deep,
Then I play some songs, that's what I need,
I was in my own therapy session,
With rappers I love in the lesson,
The words built me like a resurrection,
I don't feel sad when I catch rejection,
Now I am a product of the monsters that I live with,
As fire to the passion when they say
I should give In,

Love myself? No I hate myself,
I remember the time I tried to break myself,
Running so damn low on my mental health,
Slip the headphones and I'll lose myself,
As the days go by, in the inside I'm dying,
Look into a mirror and I'm lip syncing,
Now I got fans for when I'm sampling,
Got ASD, yea, let that sink in,
The haters trynna test me,
Poking me till they wreck me,
They tell me that I'm sketchy,
My lyrics, they get heavy,
I'm a self loathing believer,
An underdog, achiever,
If you do not like me, then see ya,
And no I wouldn't wanna be ya!

Stop!
Wait... Let me take a breather,
I'm sorry you had to hear that but that's my darkest creature,
But if I keep it secret, it will claw down even deeper,
Then it'll be too late for me to seal with the dealer,
Time is a tool and it's the greatest story teller,
I'll take advantage of it, I will be the best seller,
I'm Not scared of death at all, no, I'll be here when I'm gone,
That's why I put my everything into all of my songs,

With a baby in the crib, role model for my kids,
I'll show them just to be yourself because that is what I did,
I don't know what she's thinking, No, I'm not omnipresent,
But my girl means everything to me,
And there's no time like the present,
Until it's all gone, no one appreciates what they got,
But no one will notice until the world comes to a stop,
Everyone around is trynna race against the clock,
Hope you got the stamina cause it will never...

Stop.