killJOY

I can't be myself when they eyes on me
I can't get no help when the knives on me
Maybe this is everything that I'm gone be
I can't let them kill the joy inside of me

People been all on my neck
And they questioning every decision I make
Honestly sounding like people I trusted are openly starting to hate
Failure to failure I'm keeping my chin up but my heart been starting to break
Music my solace from intrusive thinking
It's feeling like I'll never shake
You do not get it
Mental disrupted
My spirit was splinted
My lyrics were printed
In all of my books
A reminder for every day I was tormented
But now that I'm back I don't plan to leave
I'm doing all that I can for me
Finally know what I want to be
Free of the shackles that haunted me

I can't be myself when they eyes on me
I can't get no help when the knives on me
Maybe this is everything that I'm gone be
I can't let them kill the joy inside of me

Funny how I'm the blueprint
But they don't wanna hear my two cents
It's always some issue
What's Cameron doing
Just don't be surprised if I lose it
That's not to mention my personal struggles with everything else on my plate
Back to the studio
Steering my focus from how
I'm getting stood up on a date
Still battle demons that don't let me move from the feeling that I was too late
Imma be honest I hated the church cause I felt the connection was fake
Support coming far in between but just know that I'm bout to do all that it takes
Sad and I'm angry but also dismissive
Cause most of the love, it was fake
It's true that I'm bitter
But I cannot be a quitter
I try my best to remember the time
So many songs, can't remember my lines
My dedication been one of a kind
My aspirations, no limit in mind
My generation ain't new to the grind
Most of these rappers talk more than they kids
All disrespect cause you know what it is

I can't be myself when they eyes on me
I can't get no help when the knives on me
Maybe this is everything that I'm gone be
I can't let them kill the joy inside of me

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I can't let em kill it



Credits
Writer(s): Cameron London
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