All The Ways I Could Die

Stumbling home through the rain
Temptations tattooed on my brain
Wondering, "Why can't I just be
Happy with me as I am?"

Suffering through all the signs
Blind to all the times I was fine
Used to say, "I don't play fair, I play god
And that's all that I've got"

I just can't wait to go sit in my room
Contemplate all the ways I could die
Self sabotage is an old friend of mine
And self-care just isn't worth the time

(Self care just isn't worth the time)

Seeing sound
Crisis abound
Found nobody's really themselves
Paradise wasted on me
Now let's see how I fail by design

I just can't wait to go sit in my room
Contemplate all the ways I could die
Self sabotage is an old friend of mine
And self-care just isn't worth the time
Done rearranging my mind for the chase
Won't let all my ambition go to waste
If everything's nothing, then what's left to blame?
It all changes, and nothing's the same

Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
Watch me fall out of fashion
The high's finally crashin' tonight
Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
All my demons disguised
And my faults all reprised

Find myself in a lover, the thought makes me shudder
They're just like the others, backtrack and recover
Now I just can't wait to go hide in my home
Shut the door, be alone, brace the fall on my own (my own, my own)

I just can't wait to go sit in my room
Contemplate all the ways I could die (all the ways I could die)
Self sabotage is an old friend of mine
And self-care just isn't worth the time
Done rearranging my mind for the chase
Won't let all my ambition go to waste (my ambition go to waste)
If everything's nothing, then what's left to blame?
It all changes, and nothing's the same