Pain & Strife

Dealing with pain and strife and disdain for life
The type that make you want to slit veins some nights
Tryna maintain in spite and remain sane in the light
But the strain is plain in sight
I use to take advice now I take it with a grain of salt
Cause lately the taste ain't right
If you ain't walk a day in my Nikes or live the same life
There's no way to relate we ain't the same type
That's monday morning quarterbacking
Hindsight is always twenty twenty
there's a difference between talk and action
Murphy's law says it all can happen
So preparation is everything in any shape or form or fashion
Some take a loss and resort to scrapping
That rational leads to shortened rations off a small infractions
There's a jewel in all interactions the fools chose
To ignore and get loss in small distractions

I had grey clouds over my hat I seen hella rain
Hella Rain
I was depressed with my clothes all wet and then the weather changed uh
The weather changed
They use to say I ain't this nor that and shout plenty names uh
Plenty names uh
Sticks and stones almost broke my bones
But I got medicaid and then I started getting paid
Pain killers

This last year been crazy been through a lot
The stress will bring you to your knees like you making salat
Going through it with my ex she think I hate her but na
Went from my wife to a stranger in the blink of a eye
She told me that she needed some space I'm ok with it
Told her she could have enough space to build a stadium
Son stuck in the middle I don't know what to say to him
He start to struggle in school I ain't blaming him
Times changing I'm tryna make it the best I can
This shit is crazy I hope it makes me a better man
Just bought a new house I'm having regrets
No one can save me or come take me up out of this mess
Forgot to mention my son autistic actually
Will he be good if something ever happens to me
This ain't rapping to me
This is factually the realest shit I ever wrote not a 16

I had grey clouds over my hat I seen hella rain
Hella rain
I was depressed with my clothes all wet and then the weather changed uh
The weather changed
They use to say I ain't this nor that and shout plenty names uh
Plenty names uh
Sticks and stones almost broke my bones
But I got medicaid and then I started getting paid
Pain killers

Listen close to the angels giving honest clapping
They applaud with no harness on I climb up out of madness
Let me put my heart in and kill this its a crime of passion
Life's like nola darling from she's gotta have it
She gon play us all
And it could all be so simple she gotta make it hard
Last year ray came home he just finished 7
Last year leez left home he got hit with 7
What I'm supposed to say hold your head knowing
I ain't got no bread to keep his little homie fed
Damn I could barley feed mine before I go to bed
And every time I take a call someone say I owe em bread
How could I rap bout the pain I'm dealt
He said he locked in seen a man hang himself
I tweeter on the brink myself all glory to god praise him I can't thank myself
Yea there's someone in the addick the man upstairs
He kept something in my stomach when it was nothing in my addick
My mine gone but I got the guts and the bravery
To never give up I guess the loves not wavering
For nola darling
In my crystal globe I'm balling
I'm tryna cheat death like tanya harding