Broken For Years

I made a lot of mistakes caused a lot of pain
Everything we said weighing heavy on my brain
Every word spoken hit me like a freight train
And I wanna make this work but I'm going insane
I swear that you're the girl for me I cannot stay away
I will find a way if it's a car or a plane
Make a promise that I'd love you every single day
But I would understand if you do not wanna stay

Just let me know so I don't look dumb
Used to feeling joy but now I'm feeling numb
I guess breaking hearts is easier for some
I was trippin really thought that you were the one
Now we'll never know what we could've become
Our hearts used to beat in sync like a drum
But now they only beat to the pain that we succumb
Love we used to feel goes sinking in the mud

When you moved on didn't even say goodbye
They said you break hearts, didn't think you'd break mine
It took a broken heart just to make me realize
That love is just a heartbreak waiting in disguise
Make me wanna curl up in a ball and just hide
They say I'll be okay that I will be just fine
But I'm done ignoring signs, cause the word okay is a lie
The hourglass in my hearts runnin outta time

I swear you won't find no better than this
The road that you chose is an endless abyss
And I know you try hard not to reminisce
But I know you still think about every little kiss
Said I broke your heart just add it to the list
Tears in my eyes hands balled into a fist
Crying bout all the opportunities that I missed
Feels the tears break through, and I can't even resist

Say you're losing interest but that's hard to believe
I guess when u said you loved me that you lied through your teeth
All the hidden little meanings that were lying beneath
You never really loved me you just needed relief
So you told me all the things that I wanted to hear
And you didn't even flinch when I shed these tears
I was scared of love it's an understandable fear
Now I'm here I might be broken for years