Text U First

There's a secret place hidden all inside my head
It's the special times
All the thoughts that should be dead
Sometimes I want to text you first and break my pride instead
I'm not that stupid I know not to go and waste my breath

I blocked your number
I got advice from all my friends
They all said the same thing
Don't see him again

I'm humpty-dumpty except its kind of s&m
Except nobody's here to put me back together again

Again, again
When you're around I lose myself inside your mouth
But that was then and this is now
I don't know what you're all about
You're blocked and can't communicate
I think about you every day
If you catch me lost in space its because i'm in my secret place

If I sent a text would it turn green or blue?
I can't find your number because I deleted you
Another day in quarantine
You don't know what you mean to me
Say you want to just be friends
Around, around, again, again

Thinking about you inside my head
Thinking about how things went left
Thinking about the things you never said
I would give you my last breath
After all this quarantine, you're the first one that I want to see
I'll just be here up in space
I'll be in my secret place